Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
I need to do something.
What can I even do, I didn’t expect the consequences of my past to catch up so quickly.
The logical decision (through my perspective) would be to end my self by end of the year, but that isn’t possible due to my ridiculously high preserved morality.
OK so now that’s off the table, what the fuck am I supposed to do. GED then college?? OK where are the funds coming from? GED + Job then? I’m a fucking recluse how am I going to hold a job, history has shown I can not.
Try a new therapist? The last one I tried was useless, could’ve probably counseled myself better. It would probably take some time to find one that fits me, and even then there’s little chance it will help.
Fuck me, what am I going to do.
Why didn’t I just go to school, even if I lost my sanity, why am I addicted to wrong decisions.
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Holy shit we are very similar I to am going through struggles with my ged and further education also paying for it is proving to be a ***** and a half here’s hoping you prevail friend
GEDs don’t seem like they’d be fun 🙁
Good luck ^-^
I’d hire someone with a GED in a heart beat. Getting a GED is a choice ot shows initiative. While regular school it is possible to graduate and barely be able to spell your own fucking name.
Both of you can do this.
My aunt turned 43 and she recently got her GED after dropping out, my cousin helped her study for it.
A GED isn’t technically necessary to get a job, she worked the factory circuit for most of her life. But it does help you allow for more work opportunities, fields that you might enjoy more. and like Hazy said, it does show initiative.
As for college… community colleges are a lot cheaper to pay for. most definitely. There are also grants and scholarships available for applicants. nothing in life is guaranteed, but if you chose that route it might be worth researching.
I know there are jobs out there that don’t require a lot of human contact, but that’s something you could look into if you wanted.
yes actions do have consequences, but they aren’t necessarily forever, and they often have opportunities to be fixed.