I’ve always suffered from different forms of anxiety and mental illness.. but manageable. It wasn’t until I had my son 7 months ago that I started to suffer to the degree of considering suicide.( mainly due to trauma) I feel like I nearly lost my mind and get experiences of detachment from reality (psychosis) and bad ocd/ptsd/anxiety to this day. Ive noticed slight improvements taking zyprexa but still have other symptoms as well as severe depression.
I literally feel like every second I am obsessed with how I feel and that I feel bad.Literally imagine it ALWAYS in the back of your mind.
I feel bad for considering suicide because now I have a son. My ex is out of the picture so I am my son’s only parent. My family helps me a lot and I do know that if I did commit suicide that my son would be raised by my brothers, parents, cousin and her husband. But its still sad because my son wouldnt have parents.
I feel bad but my torment is enormous. Sometimes I feel like if i only know that i have pills to commit suicide with ill feel better knowing that i have the back up always.
I researched seconal and I can likely get it but of course at a high cost. It’s $1058.00
From what i read you open the capsules 30 and put them in water. Has anyone survived seconal or have any experience with it?
** ive also thought to do the carbon monoxide method of leaving an old car on in a closed garage**
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Sorry, we are not allowed to discuss methods here… which generally means we can discuss methods but only in very vague and elliptical terms.
I’m sorry you are having a tough time.
Hi ElleHart .. CO was my first choice but I never thought about new cars and catalytic converters . Boy they work well .. I thought about just cutting it off with a grinder and trying again but then I start thinking , Shit if I survive I’ll have to pay to get that thing fixed . haha . I have also read that generators run in the home are also dangerous . If you look into it there are lots of pages that discuss barbituates and lethal doses .. Just be careful ..
thanks for your reply. I was thinking to get an 80’s car and leave it on in a rented storage/garage.