it’s been a while since i’ve been on this site.
well, that’s because i’ve been going on little adventures. most of them are sponteneous. i felt like i was doing okay.
i recently dropped out of college because i wasn’t happy with the course i was taking (hospitality & tourism management. bleh.)
i had a good gpa but i didn’t want to force myself finishing a study i didn’t feel like was for me. i am going back to school in august but i’m taking a different course.
i’ve been trying to look for a job in the mean time but no one wants to hire me.
i am an inexperienced 18 year old so it’s kinda tough. i had my first job interview ever last wednesday and i was positive that they liked me but today the lady messaged and said they decided to not hire me because i wasn’t “enthusiastic” enough for her.
i think i did my best during the interview. i tried to be as jolly as i could to impress. i hate trying to impress people tbh. lmao anyway, well. that ice cream place was kind of my only hope and now i feel like a failure. i know it may seem like a stupid thing to be sad about but yeah, my feelings r valid. i guess
it was nice not going to school and going on sponteneous adventures but i can’t sit around doing that until august. my parents think i still go to school and i’m starting to feel guilty for lying.
ugh, if i was dead i don’t have to go through this stupid shit.
fuck jobs, fuck school.
i’m so sorry for this long ass post, if you got this far: thank you.
i thought about ranting here bcus i dont want to bother the people i know. no one knows me here and i dont know any of you either. i can rant about my life anonymously.
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To be turned for a job is painful. FWIW, the job I currently have was preceded by back to back failed interviews. The job I am now at loves me and I love it. The jobs I did not get would have been bad fits, tbh.
Hey. Im right there with you about to drop out of college and go on adventures. Dont feel bad for being happy at your parents expense. Maybe sit down and talk to them one day after you’re done. But if the adventure is whats keeping you alive. do it man. dont ever stop.
It is good to get feedback on why you were turned down. I have a hard time too when someone says I am not enthusiastic or interested enough for a low-wage(way-below-living wage) job. It’s like, “yeah ok. I am naturally enthusiastic and want to do a good job…. but what exactly do you require in enthusiasm to scoop ice cream, or work a register in retail? Reeeeallllly?” Obviously saying that(I did once) does not impress at all, but c’mon. lol
Keep it up. It’s completely inauthentic, but…. if you can invent a really good answer for that question that is on most applications “Why do you want to work at *—-*” that makes it seem like you truly would choose that place over others, and if you can get those words out with a genuine smile, it helps. I can’t(won’t) right now, which is why I am unemployed.
The truth is “I don’t want to work here. I think it is likely that you are the manager here because you gave up hope several years ago(decades?) and decided to make the best of this shit job. I know that you do not believe I really WANT to work here specifically, that I hope someday to payed as much as a free human, rather than an indentured servant, and I will jump ship at the first opportunity. It offends me on a deep level that we both know this and I am still expected to lie to you in order to get a job and make enough to not feel like a total failure. You are part of a system that is sucking my humanity and dignity out and poisoning my soul.” <3