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fuck the book and fuck EVERY chance there ever was for anything to get better. fuck my family and my dead beat friends. I have the razor and all the time I need im doing it tonight I dont care I am not going to ***** out I am doing it. I HAVE NO LIFE away from this damn mental illness(es) and my family is pissing me off to no end. I DONT CAUSE PROBLEMS FOR THEM THEY PUT THEM UPON THEMSELVES AND THEN BLAME ME! I dont need people to fucking worry about me! I will not conform to this boring ass fucking life. Im not going to not smoke weed and be told what I have to do with MY life. I hate everything about this life. Where ever the fuck I go whether it be hell or heaven or some better after life or if im stuck as a ghost I dont care I dont care I DONT CARE. Im no longer going to sulk in my bed and be depressed and think about how to kill myself I am actually going to do it. EVERYONE should have appreciated me when they had the chance now you can all sit and feel like shit because thats what ive been doing everyday for 12 years. I dont care at all.