Seriously, just fk off already. I have had enough of this bullshit.
I was at a dinner with my father about 2 weeks ago. We just talked, he was talking crazy as always but it was alright. We got along normally. But now this fking piece of shit bastard writes endless messages to my mom about how horrible person I am and how she failed to raise me. All that just because I didnt pick up the phone and didnt talk to him for a couple of days. He called me and my mom an emotionless cesspool (the thing where shit goes to when you flush it). It pisses me off when he says things like that to me but when he says it about my mom I really wanna just fking rip his head off. She has always been there for me, meanwhile he was always just psychologically abusing me and beating me when I was fking 3 years old.
Seriously man, I am 19 years old. I should be spending time with people my age, looking for a girlfriend or friends or something. Not fking walking behind my crazy abusive father like some obedient dog. It is not my fking fault that you are bored coz you have no friends, no woman, no career and live with your mom when you are fking 50 years old. Get over yourself or get out of my life you fking sick bastard.
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Sorry, you have to go through that form of suffering my life more or less different from yours my temptations of living are met with the struggle of suicidal thoughts based on who I am as a person and wish that I never was born in this world due to every other possible reason I had to be alive sure my life is not as bad from how things play out I just hope you’ll end up being better in the future because as a 27 year old at the point and time of this comment however long I will be around using this site and however long I am around to exist I won’t be the one who can always be there for you as an older to a younger may you find some peace or strength in your life because my hypocrisy will end up right back to me for me I rather be dead personally I lived long enough in my mind and body I personally want out of this and my existence from the system that we built for ourselves for that it does protect us but it ultimately enslaves us. Whether it be drugs or medications or video games or porn or whatever addictions by temptations or by choice of responsibility or by some form of tradgey.
May you find peace for I can’t give it to you only out of hope that your life becomes based on you own actions internal and external positive, neutral, negative however life plays out for you find peace while I look towards death and dwell on the thoughts that led me to past to my current present and my future if I have one that is.
I’m sorry for what you are going through.
Sorry to hear you’re going through this. Maybe you should be frank and tell him to set boundaries or something.