There are so many things I did 90% of but never managed to finish. Sometimes, they are really important for my curriculum sometimes, it is drowings, books, songs… I am so afraid to fail I end up reuniting all the conditions to fail. I am so afraid my art is worth nothing that I give up before anyone could possibly judge. I think I am too paralised by fear and self hatred to achieve anything. I kind of feel like I am unfinished too, there is a missing piece, and without it I am dysfunctional. I see what my life could be if I just completed my tasks, one after the other, if I just got things done without overthinking. And it only makes it worse.