First time I ever lie to my closest friend about my depression. I’m just constantly bad, and exhausted, it goes from fainting and having zero energy to being so irritated and on edge that my thoughts go so fast I don’t even understand them. It’s been 2 months that I am 24/7 like that and. I had to ask my friends to stay home many nights in order to just stay safe from whatever crazy mood I m on or I might be. Talking helps a little, knowing they like me no matter how tiring I am definitely means the world to me.
But I feel like nothing is going to change and I’m so afraid of becoming dependent. I know they worry about me and I keep making them worry, maybe because I need them too much.
So I lied to my friend because I can’t repeat everyday how bad I feel and how unstable I am.
So I want him to relax, to have time for himself. I figured if I can’t survive without vampirising my friend’s time and energy, then so be it, I’d rather die than becoming a parasite.
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I pretend to everyone everyday that I am fine. That’s the huge lie I tell.
I do that for every stranger and even my family but my friends told me I should never lie to them about that yet I don’t want to be exhausting.