I flip flop on a note…. Sometimes I feel like I would leave a note sometimes I don’t…. Although for me the note would not really be a nice note, more of a long rant about everything I hate about the people that are in my life….
Please don’t do it… I just received my best friend note yesterday… It really hurt a lot… She died last December 16
It would hurt a lot the person that cares about you… Just maybe right now… That person might be thinking of you, worried sick as hell.
Personally, I already anticipated that something like this would happened but it also came to me that I might said something wrong or done wrong or maybe something worst… I was so anxious about it… Everyday was a torture. Not knowing where she is or she’s doing fine was a torture and dying. Especially if that person made so important changed to who you are and the only one who understood and believe in you.
Yesterday, I cried so hard – a breakdown during our class hours. I couldn’t helped myself not to… So I made a mess yesterday. Most of the part was really bad… But I saw the one’s who are really my friends and cares for me yesterday.
The anxious me everyday thinking where she is or what happened to her. Her letter released me from that torment… But I’m not happy… I only feel the pain and guilt for not being able to do anything.
So please if your going to kill yourself at least leave something… a closure for those persons… but I do hope you won’t… Your life always have the power to change someone’s life. I’m not trying to invalidate your feelings. But I hope you find it yourself not to do it.
Personally, I don’t really know where to start or pick myself up.
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I flip flop on a note…. Sometimes I feel like I would leave a note sometimes I don’t…. Although for me the note would not really be a nice note, more of a long rant about everything I hate about the people that are in my life….
Please don’t do it… I just received my best friend note yesterday… It really hurt a lot… She died last December 16
It would hurt a lot the person that cares about you… Just maybe right now… That person might be thinking of you, worried sick as hell.
Personally, I already anticipated that something like this would happened but it also came to me that I might said something wrong or done wrong or maybe something worst… I was so anxious about it… Everyday was a torture. Not knowing where she is or she’s doing fine was a torture and dying. Especially if that person made so important changed to who you are and the only one who understood and believe in you.
Yesterday, I cried so hard – a breakdown during our class hours. I couldn’t helped myself not to… So I made a mess yesterday. Most of the part was really bad… But I saw the one’s who are really my friends and cares for me yesterday.
The anxious me everyday thinking where she is or what happened to her. Her letter released me from that torment… But I’m not happy… I only feel the pain and guilt for not being able to do anything.
So please if your going to kill yourself at least leave something… a closure for those persons… but I do hope you won’t… Your life always have the power to change someone’s life. I’m not trying to invalidate your feelings. But I hope you find it yourself not to do it.
Personally, I don’t really know where to start or pick myself up.