and then followed them and tried to understand them and help them, wishing that they didn’t kill themselves because they are the best person you know
but no matter how much you tried, you weren’t able to find any good reason to stay alive and felt completely powerless and unable to help them
and now you’re suicidal and end up in hell, just like this one, this one website.
i have no faith in anything left in me anymore whatsoever.
why must it always be like this