the weird moments of me almost bursting into tears are happening again, i feel like someone is choking me. i wish this feeling would kill me. im in pain most of the day, i feel like im abusing my ibuprofen. i wonder how my liver is doing.
whats wrong with me this time? more loneliness? get over it you stupid little ****! people have it worse than me, people don’t have a loving brother either, hell, even family and friends. boo fucking hoo. im the most selfish person i’ve ever fucking met. there’s things like diseases, wars, and death happening in this world, and im focusing on myself.
why? just so someone can just say some sappy fucking words to me like “i love you” or “i care about you”? ill just feel like shit again a moment after, and beg for more affection or attention again. im almost a fucking adult, i cant be acting like this. i cant be a little girl forever. i have no excuse to be living like this!
its either i grow the fuck up, or die for everyone else’s sake.
Edit: ranting on here does take some of the stress away, so does crying. im sorry if i seem moody and spammy. usually after posts my mood seems to move a little upwards. i guess i am very moody.. jeez. i need to get a damn grip