Hey SP, it’s me again. I have been on and off this website for the worst part of 6 years. I’ve tried everything, medication, therapy, mindfulness, everything. But yet, I always end back in the same place. I’ve exhausted my options. The doctors don’t know what to do with me. Fuck, I don’t even know what to do with me. I’ve been working on the same degree for what feels like forever. But between the suicide attempts and my highs and lows, it makes school tough. It makes holding down a job tough. I have an endless amount of support from my family and friends, but it doesn’t cure my pain unfortunately. I’m at a loss, do I try and kill myself again? Do I keep pushing? What quality of life will I even have if I keep pushing. I just want the endless suffering to end. I am so incredibly envious of those who are able to manage their mental Illness. If only that could be me :/
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They way I usually manage my mental illness is by hobbies. Things that brought joy to my life. It has been the only thing that helps me cope. Therapy and meds didn’t help me either. It’s not for everyone. I would just do the stuff you love. Bit by bit. If you have to, take a break from school. It can be very stressful trying to do school and dealing with depression. I had to take the break and didn’t go back to school till I knew I was ready. Just remember that your true happiness rest within you. You can never find that happiness from another person. I wish the best of luck to you for your journey.