hi, i’m katie.c: i’m 14. and i’ve been through a lot..
well where to start..my mom is an alcoholic and drug addict, but she is one of the sweetest ladies alive. i love her to death. my dad..he couldn’t be more mean. he gets really mad and it scares me. last night, it was a minor thing, and he punched to perfect holes in the wall. in january, my mom got so drunk. me and my 10 year old brother were the only ones home at the time and we had to call my dad and he came home. he called 911, my mom had to go to the hospital and if we weren’t there, she wouldv’e been dead. she was 3.3% over the alcohol blood thing, i dont know. i really don’t understand. now there geting a divorce..i started cutting, and it got really bad. my dad found out, along with a bunch of other people. my dad looked around in my room and found my razor on top of a pile of suicide letters. then counseling came. and everyone acting like they feel sorry for me. it wasnt fun. ive been getting better. but i’ve attempted suicide 5 times since then. most of it was because of a guy too. i love him..so much. i know, i’m 14, i don’t know what love is. i think i know it when it comes around..then my bestfriend cuts too..and she does everything that i do. now shes suicidal and everythings going downhill. and my weight..i hate my body..i mean people tell me im small, but i can’t see it. i don’t know..i just need help. can anyone please just tell me what i can do to get fully better? time maybe? but thank you for your time, anyone who reads this..i promise im not an attention wanting teenage girl. i just want help..thanks again.xx
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Hi ST, You know you are not to young to know what love is. I’m sorry for your past. I to went through the same similar thing with a crackwhore mother. Seen lots of things happen i shoudln’t have and i hope nobody else has to go through it. Sometimes talking about how you are feeling really helps. I know it isn’t easy talking to the people you know personally, i dont talk to anybody around here about how i feel. I feel they will judge me or worse put me in the hospital. They say cutting help some peole feel better. Myself i’m not one for pain so i haven’t tried. All i can say about it is be careful where you cut as you dont want the scars to be visible for the rest of your life. Just cause your young doesn’t mean you can’t feel upset and depressed, it’s how you deal with it that matters. you have a whole life ahead of you, think positive. Try to think about the last time you felt happy or the things that made you happy. Hold onto it for a while, it may help just a little bit, maybe even alot. Stay strong and hold your head high. Take care
LB
God I remember what it was like to be 14… I never was a into cutting, lost a good friend cause I wanted help for her… Your parents you can’t help. You have to be strong in that case.. And trust me it sucks trying to be a grown-up when you’re only a teenager, but what are you to do? Don’t worry about a guy at your age… Guys are 1 in a million, love is hard to detect at that age, especially growing up with other problems all you want as a teenager is to be noticed, to be loved.. To be a teenager, but remember that one day you’ll be your own person out on your own, grown and living and the past will just look like a mess you survived.
@GoodbyeBrowneyes and @LuckbombAbCan : thank you guys, it means a lot what you guys said. i’ll try to go and talk to someone about everything, maybe it’ll help? i hope. but thanks so much again. x