I am, aren’t I? I am going mad.
How am I feeling?
Absolutely, positively, maddeningly sad.
I went to the gas station by my house instead of having dinner, and spent the whole time asking myself a never-ending string of what if’s? Â What if all of this is a waste? What if everything is irrational? What if? What if? What if?
When they say “It’s sink or swim”, What if you just get the fuck out of the water?
So in depression is it really sink or swim?  You can drown in depression, or struggle to swim away… Unless you get the fuck out. Take a pill or something. If you are addicted to drugs, do you keep taking the drug, and eventually die of it (OD, drug deal gone wrong, someone “accidentally” gives you arsenic instead of meth? I don’t know) or try to get better? When you swim, you are still in the situation, not escaping, just coping. That’s my theory. Maybe I’m crazy. I probably am…
I spent an hour squeaking at a live stream of Matt Smith, Kathrine Gillan, and Arthur Darvill… AKA, The eleventh doctor, and his companions, Amy Pond and Rory the Roman. And I am past 24 hours without sleep. I think I am going insane. I already went insane in my opinion. People ask me why I’m so obsessed with things like Doctor Who or Harry Potter or Torchwood, or several other books. The real reason? They were and will continue to be there for me when no one else is.
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sorry u feel like your going insane, but your “sink or swim” theory with depression? hm i honestly think its both. if u r ganna get the fuck out the water (depression) arent u goin to sink by strugglin way to much? meaning if u r ganna get out, u might sink along the way periodically, but eventually you will find your way out. does that make sense? but i dont think your crazy u actually make sense to me XD
The real question is: what do you want?
I hope you know that I’ll be here for you. I know you love your tv shows and youtuber’s. If they make you happy, then great 🙂 there’s nothing wrong with watching them. But I am here for you. If I could, i’d hop into a speed boat and come save you from drowning. I know you “Annie” please if anythings bothering you, tell me
Just know, that everyone on the face of the Earth…drunks, homeless, rich, poor, sad, happy, lonely….we all are serving an important purpose.
The key is not to measure it by this illusory world we live in. You had the intelligence to post & genuinely express yourself. Life is perception. You are doing better than you think. We just don’t think to take the time to validate & give ourselves credit for that.
Practice the little things you can do. Take care. Life is humor, change, & paradox. Everything matters & nothing matters. Find the gap in your thoughts..this is where you may find some of your answers & peace.
I have my own sonic screwdriver!
I can fix anything!
Doesn’t sound that crazy, I think you are right…
But how did we get in the water in the first place? Why are we in the water?
That was to fakingit… It didn’t let me reply right…
AND GUARDIAN, YOU ARE AWESOME!
@annie: um, i scame to the conclusion that life is like a deck of cards, once ur born you get a card (card: life) that card can give u anything good or bad, we who get in thrown in the water were given a bad card, we have to learn how to deal/cope with the card we are given, sometimes requires sinking when tryin to swim out of the water of fuck. and see how a deck has 52 cards and to many people in the worl thats when u have chances of finding someone with a familiar or exact card like yours. thats just my theory with our fucked up world,if only we knew exactly whats wrong with it. u understanding any of this?