Sometimes i wanna take the easy way out. Like my Dad. When i was little i used to be so lonley and small, i used to try to semerge myself in the tub and hope i wouldnt give up,and come up for air. I used to yell into my pillow, cry but not just cry.. Soul cry. I like to write alot, hope to make it a Career so, listen up. See, 64 year olds they get a little crazy at that age. My grandma is a old winkley ***** that you just wanna punch in the face because she doesnt hear stuff right and she mixes up your words just to make it the way she wants to hear it. Theres nothing funny about it, pure stupidity. You give up in the middle of the fight because shes dumb as hell. I have absolute hate for this women, You might say Hate isnt what you would call it. Noo, Faith Hates her Grandma. She does this thing with her eyes where you wanna hit her in the forehead and make them fall out of her head. I dont know if any of you people have wanted to ever kill someone before, or souly just hate the devil out of them, but its really hard to keep your anger inside around them. I used to love parents and understand why they did the things they did to keep us safe, then i noticed im not a kid, i have to grow up pretty fast to keep up with these old fucks. They really dont know what our generation has to go through, they dont have to keep us safe, and they dont have to treat us like slaves. If you dont resepct me i will NOT respect you for and by all means. They are all i have left but i dont care. My friends are my family. She says dumb stuff also. Like by now ive heard everything in the book. There is no way words are gunna cut me any deeper. Sometimes i wonder if i just over dosed and they wake up and see a note i wrote them saying how easy it would have been without them, thats the shit that would cut them deeper. That would be the second time this happened to them. I have no idea how they would take that.. But im gunna to prove the bastards wrong.. I dunno the point of this post. Tell me some stories about if you ever felt like this or something, maybe advice if you catch the drift. Eh, Please..?
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I know exactly how you feel and what you meant by your words, I was sexually, physically and emotionally abused from the age of 4 by my so called parents/guardians and the absolute anger…hell, rage I felt was over powering, just wanted to wipe them out, kill both of them for what they did to me, how fucking dare they hurt ANY child, let alone their own!! anyway, I could have but didn’t…….what would have happened to me?….just shoved in a cell somewhere and left to rot. as soon as I was able, I left home..and never seen them since, nor have they looked for me and I’m 39 now…..their loss!…..so here I am, completely alone :-(….the only advice I can give you is what I did to cope………just think about YOU…no one else…..how YOU feel about YOU….all that matters……others opinions including family, don’t mean shit and if they don’t like what you say, think and feel…….sorry, but fuck em, they don’t deserve you……….you’re all that really matters :-)…..breathe deeply…look into a mirror and smile at the face looking back at you 🙂
I hate my parents they make me feel so bad when they call me names and shit so I’m fucking taking the plain with the money I made from selling shit and moving to find happiness
I have a friend where I’m going plus I have money to support myself at least for food and I’m just gonna find happiness like I’m such a sad depressive person who likes to have fun
I just want ppl to love me and I’ll find that I’m not dumb I consider myself a very smart person I could be dumb at times but I know what to do now in life I wish I could hit them for all the shit they put me through but that would not be such a great idea like u can go to jail I think im only 17 but I feel much older than what I am
Fuck rules in the butthole and do what u wanna do
You only live once
well gotta say John, you got the right attitude…bravo :-)……..thats the spirit :-)……some people just shouldn’t be allowed to have children….or at least, give them away if they don’t want them……wish I’d have been given away…..would have saved me about 12 years of sheer hell…..anyway….again……..their loss, not mine…and not yours 🙂
Thanks guys. and yes, i will take all of your advice.