I forgot to tell many shitty things on my last post, like… I was really depressed bcuz many friends left me, and i chose to give my gf a better life in exchange for hell for myself. so i decided to go to a party with people i knew and the other 600 or something. late that night, i was real happy, not drunk, just a little bit dizzy. and it was reeealy cold outside, hey its norway:P but on the way i heard yelling, and i was like, god no, why… so i turned around and saw two elder boys come at me and wanted to beat me down, i did not understand what i did at all, why??? so there i was hit, kicked, spitted on, but dignity to hit back, but after awhile I got pretty angry so i made one hit at one of them and that was real hard and they flew away like birds in the park. and i was exausted begin hit so i fell down in the grass to catch my breath. i got up and started walking home. got a phone call by a dude who used to be my friend and told me: yeah, but u deserved it.
what? why? i said
its because of your style, he said
Yeah sure, im a wannabe, fuck im not, iwe been having my ”gangster-ish” style since i was 4. ITS JUST WHO I AM. People gets too disrespectful nowadays and it is killing the world.
i was confused.
walked home and did not tell anything, not even the cop. but i did not start cutting… yet. I have so many enemies, but that dosent mean i cant face them, cuz im ready to do so if they want problems with me
so on school i found out i have lost more friends, great. and days went by. guys/girls who read this, plz comment, do i sound like a wannabe asshole to u? if so, i wanna change.
Love from The Rapper
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Wait, so these so called “friends” of yours don’t want to talk to you because of the way you dress?
If that is the case then they aren’t worth your friendship.
well they hate me for who i am and how i dress, and they used to be my friends, i used to have many friends and i was popular, but then shit happend and now the ***** and those assholes live a better life than me, it is okay, i have only 2 real friends, and i hope they stay there still. and thank u for that, i know they arent worth a shit, but i don’t want to become like them either, its like become your own enemy right? still, im no one to joke with, but i respect people that respect me… btw sorry bad english..
Well i’m not in your situation so it might be easier said then done, but try not to be around those fake friends. I’m really happy you were able to find two REAL friends. Try to just be you, I saw your other post and read your rap it’s pretty good. Anytime you feel down just write since your good at it. Let rapping be your release.
Thank you so much, really appreciate that u say that:) the rap u read was old, so i have many new now, and im starting over to something that may ”spark the brain that may change the world” as 2 pac said… anyways, I try my best, problem is those people are in my class, so its kind of difficult to avoid them, haha, but im a fighter, i dont give up easy:)
Hmm, well just try being the bigger person. I know how hard it is to try and refrain yourself from being rude to people you are constantly with. But i’m pretty sure it’ll pay off in the end.
I would really love to hear your new stuff by the way.
yeah i hope so…
new rap, here? :S if so i will remind u, im not good at it at all, it just make me happy, just to write it, and then rhyme it:)
Well if it makes you happy I think you should share it, but only if you want of course.
sure, but most of it is based on hate, i just got so much hate inside and want to unleash it, so i rap, cuz everytime i come home from training i got messy and bloody hands from boxing xD i post it on the next one here:)
You’re a boxer?
I’ve always wanted to try that but my mom won’t let me because she thinks girls shouldn’t do those kinds of things. -_-
Yay, hopefully i’m on here when you post it so I can read it.
So uncommon.. yet, so unconditional.. street love, yeah..
Aye, prettiest girl i’we ever seen
she gotta be real, i startin to get a feel
how long its gon take till…
wanna feel her hand in mine
i wanna get her smile, happy mine
if u be my girl, i be your guy, not the one to highfive
im here alone, do i miss my tone
nobody can be ya clone, babe, pick up the phone
im here to show love, so here is my song
aye
sittin by the table watching u smile
2day i started this rime
last chick, pissed sour as a lime
thank god i stopped the whole thing in time
im not that fanzy, in kitchen, im not ramsey
but i bet i make u smile without even try
to you, i will never lie
love me, remind me life
it isnt so long since i sliced with knifes
still hell of a time since i started rappin
i start cappin, u start clappin
this is for the girl with the bright fine smile
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i dont rap 4 fun, i rap 4 life
u see it on my scars, where the knife strifes
4 u, i win u great prizes
i will banish all your chrisis
and give you all the nicest
girl, love me 4 what i am, not what i do
sometimes it can be as fucked up like an messy toon
i bet u get pissed off too
but life is a mess, we should take it as the rest, and think about it as it was only a test..
the more my heart beat, the less time i got
give me one shot before it all rot
dont let it in the blot
4 u it reach the throat
if u was about to leave, i would die inside
if u were lost, i would find you
im a guy to trust, still i have a blood lust
all my enemies fall to dust
hand in hand in the dusk
for me, all ur problem is a must
by me, u find trust
ask me, my path is build of frozt
my past is crushed
im not in a rush
girl if u didn’t know
you are my crush
i want to say so much, but left speakless, cuz i dont want to be reckenless, change sadness to happiness, happiness to love
girl, imma bout to show im gonna change the world
new rap, new shit, hell i want u with
i was to join the empire, was about to be a sith
but watchin you made my world lightend up
im frightned up, shit, i never give up, hoping i dont fuck up, shit, i have to get up
this is not my setup, but if u want i buy you a new pup, or a new cup with love as a sign
to show ure mine, hah
damn girl, if u had a price, i would have payd it twise and still be wise
blood for sure, till im cold for sure
if u got sick i would die to find a cure
This is not to any special, i got no one so on no one wants me either 😛
but the song is MY definition of the word love, some of it, and the text is not fully done, i have to fix some verses so it goes right with the beat and still tell what i want to tell:)
not offical but i know how to fight well, haha i could show u a move or two then ;P
I don’t get why you don’t think you’re good? I thought it was really nice. (:
You really should do that, I think boxing is so cool.
hehe awesome:D and thank you very much! 🙂
You’re very welcome. (:
🙂
I loved your rap. You’ve definitely got talent. It means so much when it comes from the heart
What you’re trying to say is definitely coming across. I was like “damn! This guy knows how to love!”
Thank you so much, it really means much for me to hear that, rises my hope for real, its the first time i have shared anything rap at all, and im so glad u like it 🙂 well love is different from one and another, but this is my pure definition 🙂 ”This guy know how to love!”, smiled to this part:) a big thanks and love from my heart!
OMG, your just amazing, no pleaase dont change, no matter what those so called “friends” say! you are you, ur amazing the way u are, with all ur flaws just stay they same!, ur rap literally got me teary, you have pure talent- ur not a wannabe asshole the other asshole that called you was! plus if “frineds” are gonna leave u just for that honestly they r just not worth it u should 4get bowt them! i love your rap and honestly it was amazing only if there was sum 1 exactly lyk that! (:
Thank you very much Whoslaughingnow, appreciate that:) well i changed in a positive way, the way i let the haters hate, but the pain never seems to grow to forgotten scars though…. I remake those thoughts into my lyrics, again, haven’t been for some great response hear here from you guys i think i would skipped rap for rest of my life, so everyone thank you so much for giving me hope. i had no faith in people at all, not at all, but you have really given me hope, forever greatefull for that, actually im going to try to write a new text, ”Hope” just how easy it is to lose it, and hard it is to realize that it has been there all the time… if i post stuff, let you know, this is for you guys, and my friends 🙂 thank you again 🙂
Hey rapper(: thats really good! but remember that it takes time to heal, but 4 now take out all pain and anger thats inside of you through rapping and talking to those who are really worth it! luv to hear more of ur raps! ur seriously talented!! and your welcome(:
Thank you so much!:D just let me know if u want to see any more, been busy lately, have done some deep thinking and reading, an kind of summary of the pain my last month, how easy it was to cut without feeling much of pain, I called the rap ”Mama I got a Deathwish”.. it is not quite done yet either, much more to do there 😀
Welcome(: i know it’s a late reply, but yeah id love too! woah ouch! why cut, when you could rap (and you have the talent for it) so there you go! (: well if you’re comfortable with it, you should share it! also if you wanna share your raps for more people, there’s a site i joined a couple of months ago called: wattpad. I think you should give it go(:
Woah… Its a freaking long time since i was here, saw the last comment, so sorry for the late reply, i will try out the site you listed, thanks!!!:)
All love from
The Rapper.
Woooooah It has been ages! It’s alright! I’ve started writing on there so let me know if you like it! (:
Also you can then just easily make an account and share your work for others to see if you’re still keen on sharing your raps, or read stories or poems on there etc (:
Yeah that sounds good, i will make an account there soon:) whats your name on there?:) checked it out and i must say it looks pretty neat:)
Sweet! Sorry forgot to check if you had replied or not! its: whoslaughingnowgee
And yeah it’s actually pretty cool! 😀