ive singlehandedly fucked up my whole life. i was in love with my best friend. we’ve been best friends for years and ive loved him the whole time and then i fucked the whole thing up. because he was being distant and i freaked and stopped talking to him for weeks and then the first time he even texted me all he wanted to say was that he “liked” someone. this gorgeous fucking perfect girl that everyone is in love with and that he will never get. and now everything is messed up and i ruined our friendship and we are both going to the same summer program for 5 weeks and i dont even know what will happen and i still love him but i also hate him and i really need him right now because everything else is fucked too. all of my friends hate me now. i dont even know how it happened. my closest (i guess) friend doesnt really like me im just her backup friend and shes just as fucked up as i am. my other friends dont even talk to me anymore and they all fucking hate me. i dont know what to do and i miss him so much and i feel so lonely. and i stopped cutting a couple months ago but i just started again because everything is shit and nobody fucking cares. and i know i sound like i have it so easy but im literally completely and utterly alone and nobody gives a fuck shit about me. even my parents dont love me im more like a hotel guest than a kid. i wish i were dead. i might OD on benadryl again so i can just fall asleep but i think i ate the whole bottle already. i sound like a whiny rich kid. well what fucking ever. i wish i were as drugged up as my sister so at least i would think i was happy. i honestly dont even know why im here anymore. i wish i could just sleep forever or that i were never born.
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Just suck his dick at summer camp.
He’ll forget all about that other *****,
And he’ll think that you’re the cat’s meow.
Lmfao, damn coitus! But that will probably work and most definitely get you outta the friend zone
…and into the friends-with-benefits zone.
good advice
No it’s not, it’s pretty shitty advice. Personally I think you should just speak from the heart an tell him how you feel about him, the only down side is he may not feel the same way towards you and you have to be ready for that rejection. So I ask you this is the risk worth the reward?
well…
FWB is certainly better than silently tormented, aching over secret feelings for a special someone. Friends are good. Sex is good. Love is good.
If you have to go without the exclusive-relationship part, there are still good things about cherishing special time savored with a special person. Plus, blowjobs are awesome. Chances are, you’ll end up taking “such risks” with anyone, at some point, so it might as well be with someone you feel is special… even if you don’t end up getting to keep them.
I think it’s better to go ahead and try, than to always wonder what might’ve been.
When considering risk v reward: what’s worse: knowing the answer is ‘no,’ or knowing you never even asked the question?
My favorite-boss-ever, once said to me: “the answer is always ‘no,’ unless you ask.”
You have to ask, to have a chance to get a ‘yes.’ A chance is better than no-chance, right? I would think so.
Anyway, chances are, whatever he sees in this other girl, he’s probably not going to marry her. You guys are way young for that. If you care about this person, make sure he knows, and be ready to be there for him when/if he needs you, when/if he’s ready.