I am 39 years old I have thought about suicide since I was 6 years old. My life has always been so difficult. I had one person that kept me alive and that is my dad. I didn’t want to disappoint him. Now I live for my son but my life is imploding and I just think about dying more and more. It makes me sad to think of leaving my son but its just too much. I feel broken, bullied, abused, abandoned and alone. Today my husband let me know that I am a failure, an idiot, a fat fuck, a loser and a few other choice things. Only my son and my dad love me. I am alone in the world and I have nothing else to give. I pray tonight as I have most nights since the age of six that my lord will just take me. He never does, maybe I’m not good enough for God?
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Yeah I’m 41 and I keep wondering why I didn’t take the red pill. Both my ex-wives left me, but thank God I never had kids I think that’s the luckiest thing. That sucks that your hubby is being a little *****. Kick him in the nuts then take a nap.
i may not be much of help but here goes nothing. i have been thinking about death since i was small too, though im only 14. if your husband said that to you then he’s just a fucked up guy, like @coitus said, kick his balls hard enough so he wont have any children any time soon then go take a nap. dont listen to what he said, everyone is special in their own way. You were given this life because you are strong enough to live it. you are good enough to god, its just its not your time yet, so live life. make sure your son lives to be a great man and your dad dies (god bless him) happily. life is a ***** and we all know it. but you just gotta make the best of it. u are not alone in the world. u have ur son and dad, and if you stay positive, you will meet people who will understand. im sure you will and soon. never give up hope, no matter what.
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I think it’s amazing for someone to stand up living for that long. I just want to say “Well done” I’m sorry you did and are still struggling, I really hope you don’t pick death over life <3