At this time of night all I can think about is I don’t fit in with this family. My dad got this girlfriend and she has three kids. I’m 21 and they rang from 10 to 12. I get I have to grow up but dam they talk me into these “family” trips. I am not the family type. I love my family but I can’t do the happy family crap. My family if broken and I am trying to keep the little family I have together.I cry a lot more then I use to and my friends have talked to me about how scared they are and how I can come to them but all they do is witch at me for being ok with my dad. to clear some stuff up. My parents are going through a divorce and my dad has found love and my mom is sick but she dose nothing to help herself. I’m scared to even think about getting a boyfriend cause I may end up like her that and thanks to her reminding me all the time I know I’m not good enough for one. She is hurt so she knows what to say to make me just as sad. I know I’m just whining but dam. I can’t breath most time. Even now I know I will cry myself to sleep. I’ve started making myself sick again and my stress is high but hey that’s my life. At lest for now.
Kyo
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I’m a little younger than you, and have been through not as much as you, but I can try to understand, right?
Me, being a guy, I know shouldn’t cry. But there have been times I have cried myself to sleep. Reasons include feeling lonely, not good enough, very unhappy, etc, etc.
You are not worthless. I understand about the family thing. You seem very caring and as one once said to me, not that this will help a lot, but a beautiful mind is a lot more important than a beautiful face”.
I hope you do understand that.
As for love, I totally get that one. I haven’t always grown up in a peacefull, one big happy family, so like you, I worry about falling in love and such, much for the same reasons as you, I think.
If you want to, you can email me.
My email address is: brl.cents@gmail.com
Chat soon,
Blindaudio