Things DO Get Better <3

Two years ago my boyfriend of a year and a half started ignoring me. He ignored my texts, calls, avoided me in person and when I asked why he finally told me I’m “a fat ugly waste of space that doesn’t deserve to live” and I became depressed. I cut every day for nine months. I counted over 1000 cuts in less than a week. I drank bleach countless times in the hope of dying but it didn’t do anything. I stopped eating. I would just have dinner with my family so they wouldn’t suspect anything and it would have been a tiny portion. Voices in my head told me I was too fat for food and eating anything would make me fatter than I already was. I cried myself to sleep every night for nearly a year. All I wanted was to die. I didn’t try to get better because I thought I wasn’t worth it. That changed.. about four months ago I started talking to a guy I met and he made me promise to live until Christmas. I didn’t think it was possible. We’ve talked every day since and now I’m better. My blades have gone forever and I’m two months clean. After two years of pain and suffering I’m finally better. If anyone wants to talk, I’m here. I don’t care who you are or what your story is, I’m here x