These voices are becoming too much to bare. I’ve heard voices all my life, but never to this extreme. I have counted as many as 20 voices all arguing with each other but agreeing over a mutual hatred of me. Telling me to kill myself. Telling me that I’m not worth it. Saying I’m waste of time/space/and money. Calling me a slut. Saying I deserved what those guys have done to me. Telling me not to as my crush out because he’ll just reject me, laugh in my face, and hurt me like everyone else. I fear they’re winning. Slowly driving me insane. I really like him but the voices are just so loud. Telling me that he’s just going to hurt me like every other guy has done. That he is only being nice to me to hurt me more. I can’t help but listen. I have no one to say anything different from them. They scream at me telling me that I need to die and they might just win this time. I feel like I’m losing this fight. I don’t know how to fight back but I can’t help but listen to them. I need help, but if I tell the doctors they’ll send me to a mental hospital. If I tell my parents they’ll be having everyone at church praying over me. I talk to my pastor about it, but nothing seems to change. I am strong in my faith and know without a doubt that God is real through things that I have witnessed and felt. But I just wish that sometimes my prayers wouldn’t go unanswered…. I don’t know if I’ll be back… I honestly just want this all to end…
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Are these real voices, like they’re standing right behind you? Or are they thought voices..um…just your imagination going bonkers? I’ve had the real voices in the past and I usually break my neck turning to see who’s talking, but there’s no one there.
I wish I could take them from you. Tell them to speak to me, I’ll show’em a thing or two..give’em the boot.
Maybe you can find help, someone to help and listen. Help you to face the monsters within. There’s always the suicide hotline, Samaritans..a counselor…hang on..there’s a way.
I get both the real voices and the ones in my head. I see things and get really bad sleep paralysis. I talk to my pastor (who is like a father to me) and I just don’t know what to do……..
Legit legit im going through what your going through right now,And you would never fuckin guess it by looking at me im a girly girl and I trip out hard I trip out hard like no other I know why though,I used a lot of drugs and currently im on diet pills so..I understand my problem But ill pray for you love you and your beautiful
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@perfumepipes I guess I look like someone who typically would experience this? it’s creepy and scares the hell out of me.. but ugh idk.. and thank you for your prayers…
If you believe in God then people at church praying over you or for you might not be such a bad thing. Maybe you should even ask for that to ‘even the sides’ since the voices have you outnumbered. There’s been scientific studies that showed people who were prayed for recovered quicker than people in another group who weren’t prayed for. I think there was a study that showed people who didn’t even know they were being prayed for benefited more than people in a similar group.
I’m not saying I believe this but when I read your post I thought it sounded like demonic oppression. I believe in the Spiritual realm and I’m open minded enough to believe that just like there’s people on Earth who will bully people there could be Beings in the Spiritual dimension that could do the same thing. And yeah if you said that to a doctor they’d call you crazy and put you in a hospital. I just see that as closed mindedness because there’s no way they can know for sure that there isn’t a Spiritual dimension with Entities, maybe even people who died and passed over that can’t make contact with us. Just like I don’t know for sure if what I’m saying is real. I just like to keep all my options open.
there is a spiritual realm. they’re demons not actual people, but they are definitely there and will do anything they can to pull you away from God (that’s their job). That’s why I have been talking to my pastor about it. He’s prayed over me and has been praying for me every day since I told him (about 3 months ago) they just don’t seem to be going away.
Sometimes when other methods fail it is important to seek help from other sources. I highly recommend telling your psychiatrist about the voices, they will continue to drive you mad unless something is done. There is no shame in needing help sometimes. You are a remarkable person for enduring the struggle that you have for as long as you have. Even if you do end up in a psychiatric ward for a short time, it is only temporary and you will feel so relieved when the voices are gone. I will pray for you too.
@ashley68@q.com psychiatric wards scare. I know people who have come out of them even worse than when they went in… and because I’m under 18 still my psychiatrist will tell my mom. and my parents are going to freak out.. they always do.. that’s why I haven’t told anyone (family/doctors) about my suicide attempts.. they still don’t know even though the last one was 6 months ago… plus I feel like my doctor will just put me on yet again another medication.. I’m on 14 medications now for all different stuff…… I don’t want/need anything else in my system
You are religious, have you spoken to a priest about performing an exorcism?
I’m christian not catholic. I’ve talked to my pastor about this. it’s oppression not possession. I am a christian and have been saved for many years. so demons cannot physically be inside of me. they can be over my life and over me and my thoughts and feelings, but they cannot be inside of me. an exorcism would be pointless. Oppression is in the long run more dangerous than possession because it affects your mind not your body.
14 meds is just bs, there’s no reason for that. They really should take some of your meds away maybe change some, if they knew what was really going on they may be able to give you the right thing.
it’s not that.. I’m only on 3 for mental illness. the other ones are for physical medical problems. and this is the last combination I can try at my age. I’ve tried everything.
I fully agree.
@PeelASquid to what?
I watched some documentary one time about demons not being inside someone, but like latched onto them and following them. Anyways, they weren’t Catholic, but they were desperate and they had an exorcism done. I think it worked for that guy, who knows? Just a thought.
I’ve seen someone be delivered from demonic presences in person. an exorcism will only work on possession. and what I have isn’t possession. and most “documentaries” on that kind of stuff aren’t real. 99% of the time they are just for entertainment purposes
I guess all that’s left then is to stand up to them and tell them to get the f**k away from you and that they have no power over you. Which you have likely already done. I think I would be more afraid of the voices than the psych ward though. The psych ward I went to wasn’t all that bad.
I’m at least waiting til I turn 18 (end of November this year) because then they won’t tell my parents.
Just hang in there sweetheart, 18 isn’t too far away. Know that the voices are liars and they never speak the truth. Do your best to be kind to yourself despite what they say.