i am nothing. every since my best friend Danny died my life has become less than shit. he was the person i could talk to when i had no one else who i could. my family hates me and its like no matter what i do i can never make them happy more or less me. i miss him so much and it seem like everyday i have to find a reason to stay on this earth. ive tried so many times to die and i come so close every time but someone ends up saving me somehow. that doesnt mean they love me. i dont want to be here anymore. i just want to die. i dont take meds because if i do i will only save them so i can od. ive been to hospitals for my depression, bipolar, eating disorders, and self harm and nothing ever helps. i have no one who cares about me so why should i be breathing rihgt now writing this? why dont i just end it. end everything. i mean its not like my mom would care. she tells me to kill myself everyday so whats the point? i dont know what to do anymore.
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You are not “nothing”. I agree it would be better to have a supportive family but since your family doesn’t have the resources to console you in your difficulty that hardly means you are nothing. I know the pain of losing close friends. It sucks. I also know I have a very close friend and that person could write you post word for word. This leads me to believe somewhere out there, there is a someone who cares for you. The world is a diverse place with limitless view points. Don’t sell yourself short
So research how to do it successfully. Find a place to do it where people are least likely to bother you or a fast enough route to where you won’t be worth saving. The need for love is important but you can love yourself. Expecting others to love you just because is just plain stupid. Your parents aren’t required to love you, and your friends aren’t required to love you. It’s a voluntary choice. Anyways, I don’t think that you actually want to kill yourself. I think you just want to get away from shitty people. If you really want to die, google up a methods website and pick the best one. I’m not a believer in telling people to “choose life”. You either want to live or you don’t. Quite simple.
I think you should change your envirment and look for other frends or people yu can spend time with. if your parents arent supportive leave the huose and go live some place else
make some new friends.