if i cant have her, i cant have anybody

Hey man, love is a myth. Not the kind of love you feel for your mom, dad or your siblings, friends etc…. The story book long lasting forever love that is packaged and sold to us in everyday life. Everyone including the above mentioned people are looking for you to conform to what they expect you should be.

As you expect from them also. Same as me and everyone else. We’re all guilty. It’s the human condition. I expect you will read this and you will have a complete change in the way you think. Who the fuck am I to presume I know a single fuckin thing about what is going on in your life.

These are the jaded thoughts and the point of view of a mad man. I have spent the last ten years pining for a girl that I lost. The love of my life. Ten years, it has not faded. She haunts my thoughts everyday.

This random all over the place shit is why I feel I can’t do this anymore. Don’t listen to a fuckin word I have said. I’m out of my mind. I hope you find your way and you don’t end up like me. A jaded 38 year old with a head full of pain.

I’m going to shut up now. Just, just, just………