For nearly a month now, I have lost so many things in a matter of seconds, I never have time to cope with any of it, and I just can’t take the pain anymore as well… Seems like for as long as I can remember all I’ve gotten to feel is pain, pain, pain and more pain… Endless, never ending and unrelenting amounts of pain… It just never stops… it just keeps growing and growing, like an ocean that expands over the land, swallowing all in its path.
There just doesn’t seem to be any reason for me to exist at all anymore, no one wants me around, I have no friends, my family’s hated me for as long as I can remember, I’ve had bullies at every school I’d go to growing up, throughout elementary and high school… nothing but, bullies and teachers that supported the bullies and would punish me for trying to ‘snitch’ on the bullies.
Every waking moment I want to scream “SOMEBODY KILL ME ALREADY!” or “SOMEBODY WAKE ME UP FROM THIS NIGHTMARE!!!” But, I know that this nightmare, this hell, is all I have for a life… And there doesn’t seem to be a ghost of a whisper that cares about any of it… Why do I even bother going on when no one wants me… it just doesn’t make any sense, I have no purpose, I have no friend, nor someone to talk to, all I have is the pain that hurts my heart every moment of my life.