holding on

This post really speaks to me. I tend to do exactly what you described because, in general, it’s a very logical & effective strategy.

For example, say you’re fixing a car. It just doesn’t run, and you feel overwhelmed. Well, then just work on the headlights for a while. Block everything else out, get the headlights working and that will give you some momentum to tackle the rest later.

But, like you said, what happens when that 1 thing doesn’t work out? Or you look at yourself, spending hours on a stupid headlight when there are more important things in the world to do?

I’m in that position right now. I desperately needed 1 small success to keep me going. So I tried doing something easy. Not only did it fail, it blew up in my face and fucked up the rest of my life even worse.

All week I’ve been trying very hard to come up with a new emergency plan, but how do you recover from something that was already your “emergency plan”?

All I can suggest is try again, only this time choose something that you enjoy doing. So even if it fails, you can say you had a fun time wasting your time.

I’m sorta rambling, but I hope some of this might help you out. I guess what I’m saying is that everything is potentially “false and stupid”. So pick something that’s false and stupid and fun?