Going down hill and no where fast…….

Hey guys and gals ,  I know its been a while since I last posted on here and my life it feels like has been going on a downhill slope and no where fast…

I’m not sure if I mentioned this on my last post but me and my (now ex) bf back in February unexpectedly split right before Valentine’s day.  No reason at all  just happened through text out of the blue after him not responding to any of my fb messages for two weeks and then saying were better off as best friends. Bull Fuckin Shit! Maybe I saw it coming for a longer time but refused to believe it cause I thought we could get through this battle but I guess it could be worse since it was the first relationship that didn’t end with me getting cheated on and pretty much left for dead.

I’ve  been dealing with depression issues and misery ever since. Its been getting harder to fake a smile and act like everything is ok while i’m crumbling on the inside. Nothing is working anymore I am starting to get behind of school work due to lack of motivation for my major anymore, Cutting myself aint working either I no longer feel anything, even sex aint doing anything … After that one night a few weeks ago when I got home that night I was seriously considering on killing myself  from how disgusted and disappointed I was with myself……   (thank god nothing happened from that) . Trying to distract myself with school work and other stuff  to keep him out of my mind and move on….. But that starting to fade as well. I don’t think a counselor could even help this hopeless case at this point. I will be surprised If I’m still alive by may.

Peace Out!

-BrokenAngel