I have friends, I have a great family, I have a great boyfriend. I’m in my early 20s and started my own company 2 years ago. Since then nothing has gone right with it. My developers quit after months of not delivering on promises, and my current developer is treating me like shit. I have had suicidal thoughts off and on all my life but I’ve been having suicidal thoughts now for weeks… Today and yesterday something was different. I feel really numb. I keep trying to get out of it, to think about my family and how much it would hurt my little brother but… I just don’t care. I feel literally nothing. I looked up ******** and am seriously considering taking all my money and going to Mexico to buy some. I’m sure I can find it if I looked hard enough. Either that or just find a gun and end it all already. I’m travelling to the states in the summer, I can probably find one there easily.
I don’t understand why I’m feeling like this. My life should be great but I just want to end it all. All I think about is not waking up tomorrow. I’ve been crying non stop for 10 hours, but I don’t feel anything.
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ERRRRRR rabbits,
YOUR FINE! most people suffer for years! you don’t have to do that, make your changes and carry on.
I don’t know if I’m fine or not. I don’t really feel anything right now. It’s like I had a matchstick burning inside me before and all of a sudden someone put out the light. Now there is nothing. I look in the mirror and I don’t even register that this is me. It’s nothing, there is nothing there.
Are you from canada rabbit ?
I’m in Europe.
rabbit, you are putting too much stress on yourself
i advice you to forget all your work for 3 months and take rest/ do what you likes to enjoy…
you don’t need to care about money… you have your boyfriend who will make and give money to you after you marries him.
The stress… Has been so much for 2 years. Every day I was fighting to keep things going. Even when everything went wrong I had a fighting attitude. Now that is gone. There is no more light. Even if I try to pretend that I am fighting, inside I feel nothing.
Thank you to everyone for commenting.