I just had a massive fight with my family. Its my finals week and last terms finals week my dad asked me if I could stay at someone else’s house. This time I asked my dad “is your offer still valid” and he said yes. I was packing and my mother came and started screaming. She said i humiliated her in every term of my life and told me to fuck off. We are always fighting and they are always saying bad words. Okay I accept that I am a pain in the ass when it comes to school but thats too much for me. I cant stand it anymore. I dont have any real friends, real people that love me, I cant do anything right, and now my parents hate me. I really dont have an ambition that I can lead my life to. I am so sick of this shit. I thought about commiting suicide but I am such a chicken. What should I do? I really want to die in silence and peacefully. Please help
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Hi TGWD
Your parents are ill equipped to parent as they seem to think screaming resolves anything. Who is the damned parent here? Sheesh! And then asking you to stay somewhere else. Sounds like they need therapy. Not like you raised your damned self now, is it? Sounds lie their anger is at themselves for not being the parents they should have been. Their emotional intelligence could benefit from some parenting lessons on how to be responsible loving parents.
It sounds like you are in a lot of emotional pain. esp with finals. That is a lot of stress – no wonder you feel like hammered ass.
You cannot expect to have ambition at your age – ffs your parents put that on you too? You are still a young person with a lot of roads to take before you decide your ambition. Some never decide or re decide in middle age. AND THAT IS FINE!
Who can you turn to for support? Guidance counselor? A more sensible relative?
I thought about going to a professional but my mom said that they are giving pills that can change your lifestyle and I dont need them. (Since she is a doctor herself) I am feeling better comparing to yesterday. Thanks for your reply though, it made me feel good. I learned that Im not alone by thinking that my parents need therapy themselves. Thank you 🙂