Imagine falling head over heels in love with someone. You have been in love with this person, thinking about them, obsessing over them 24/7 for 3 years and it’s still going on. You find out that the intend to propose to you and you couldn’t be happier. You are in a state of ecstasy. In a state of unbelief, that you have to pinch yourself to make sure that everything is real and you are not dreaming.
You really arn’t dreaming but it’s not real. The unconditional love you felt from that someone – it’s not real. The plans that you would be together for ever in holy matrimony – that isn’t real. Because you were never in a relationship. And it becomes clear that that person hates you after blocking in several accounts. That feeling of ecstacy is quickly overtaken by feelings of inadequacy and heartbreak.
That is what I have just experienced. I thought he was sending me secret messages of how much he loved me. Even after he blocked me, I continued messaging him delusionally thinking he was just playing a game and he wanted me to continue to profess my love. You are curious to find out the truth and when people confirm that you are crazy, you then tempt them with money to tell you the real ‘truth’.
That is me and now three years from when you first met, here I am. Take a walk into my footsteps.