I think if I didn’t have a mom and dad It would definitely be a lot easier to die. It must be a much harder choice for people who others rely on, how can you go through with it if you have kids? I’m lucky nobody relies on me, I’m only thinking how bad the effect will be on my parents who love me but don’t rely on me and actually want me to go live on my own now. How do I minimize the suffering death can cause? I’ve tried once before but I began thinking of my mom as an old lady with no husband, child, grandchildren or parents… She made it clear she wants me gone but not like this.
I knew an old woman who told me she was sad sometimes seeing old couples because her husband died. But she then started bragging about her sons achievements, and how she has grandchildren to “fill the void”… My mom may have to cope with being alone just like I have, and isolation is partly why I am dying.
Should I think so hard about it? Or should I say goodbye and go without a second thought?
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Even if you try to lessen the impact, it’s still such a big blow to people that love you (like in your case your mom) that it’s debatable if it even makes a difference. That’s actually the only remaining reason that keeps me hanging on (a family member that “needs me”), and once i had that conversation with that person… and yup, the answer to that was “there’s nothing you can do to make it easier”, and i believe it. Still, i do think that you might give it a good hard thought first, because it might be different in your case. Hope you can find a way to improve things.
Mf, thanks for the input, I will include that “there’s nothing I can do to make it easier”, i appreciate it. I just want people to mourn very quickly and then get back to enjoying life.
I had a friend who failed suicide in 2009 (I believe) but was successful in 2011. Unknown to me was the lengthy battle with mental illness issues, mental issues unknown to just about everyone, including me. For the most part people have moved on though people still reminisce. Unfortunately her family still struggle with her suicide… it comes with the territory unfortunately. Her suicide still remains not understood by many, I however think I understand her reasoning. She didn’t leave a note.
I included the above in agreement with the above that there simply isn’t anything that can be done to make it easier… but, if at all possible, leave a note. By my friend not leaving a note it has caused her family with a series of guesses and theories able her demise…. They’ll never understand but a note I think would have helped with closure.
I think that you have to do what’s best for you. No matter what. I mean, I had a friend who’s dad committed suicide while he was in the 6th grade. He took 4 months off school but then he got better. He was able to cope with life without his dad. I think that it’s definitely harder when you have kids, but I think when you’re in that much pain or that unhappy, sometimes it’s for the best for you and them. If you stay on this Earth unhappy and suicidal… who is that helping? Suicide is no joke. If it’s what you absolutely need, then I support you. I don’t like that you feel you need to but I support you. I know that everyone who will be affected, would hate it but support you too. Especially if they know you are unhappy.
well, this helped. Thank you for the story and being honest. All I care about is not dragging others into it, geez i just remembered my friend who’s parents were killed when we were 16. He cried but got over it the next day by not thinking about it. Seeing it this way takes off a lot of guilt i feel