i feel awful when I’m alone i feel like no one loves me or wants to be around me. which is probably true, i mean people just don’t like me. idk why I’m always nice maybe ill tell some bad jokes that aren’t funny sometimes but the good jokes come a lot more often than the bad. Maybe I’m not the coolest guy ever but people love me when we’re drunk i guess because its easy when neither of you can follow in conversation and just say whatever pops into our heads. but i guess my deep seeded hatred of myself comes from my inability to be happy without a woman in my life. That feeling when you have someone to be there for you and love you is the best feeling in the world and when its gone it feels like I’m going through opiate withdrawal my head feels like its going to explode. All i can think about is getting another hit however i can so that i can kill the pain, my only problem is that all of my dealers got arrested( this is part of the simile i’m not a drug addict ) and not I’m alone my head hurts and i have no one to fall back on… this is rock bottom for me
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Being without a man is really hard for me.. so I get where you are coming from. You sound like a pretty sweet guy- just a word of advice: you haven’t found the right girl yet because it just isn’t time. And please, please, please do not sell yourself short. Please. I know what it did to me, and it wasn’t a good thing. You deserve to find love, but be patient. Love normally doesn’t come after planning or expectedly- it normally runs into your life and wacks you upside the head. Good luck my dear- I hope you find the woman of your dreams!!
and i won’t.im done
i am giving myself til friday to figure out what ill do
Good Luck 🙂
Welcome to my world cupcake. I’ve been like this since February. I guess its true the faithful ones are the ones that get affected the most when a relationship ends.
I have never been in a relationship so I don’t give a fuck about anyone now
I feel the same that you do, but there’s something to be said about that. Even if i’m being a bit of a hypocrite saying this (because i have trouble with it myself), one of the most valuables things you can learn in this screwed up life is being comfortable with yourself, without needing a love interest to validate you. Sort of like being able to ride a bicycle without the training wheels (your significant other can be seen as the training wheels there). It’s hard as hell if you are used to having someone, but it can be done.