Idk if i miss you. Or rather idk if i miss the person i stopped talking to. You weren’t the same person I fell in love with. You had such a major impact on my life that no matter what i do I’ll always know it wouldn’t have happened without you. But you went from lovingly warm to ice cold. I didn’t waiver. You went from open and honest to distant and duplicitous. You pushed me away but i tried to hold on. You trivialized my struggles and supported me at the same time. You once said you were a hard person to love and when i disagreed its as if you wanted to prove me wrong. You did. I lost my ability to read you or fully connect with you. I know leaving was the right decision. I stand by a lot of what i said i would change the tone of it definitely. But it should have been said. I’m not much but im no ones back up plan. I was walking on eggshells and what you needed me to be was impossible for me to be. So i had to leave. Im sorry for hurting you. Im sorry things ended the way they did. You were both a lesson and a blessing.
If you feel me thinking of you I’m sorry for that too. I really want to be over you and moved on. Despite how it is for you anyone can not find anyone. I wonder if you think about me. And if so what do you think of me. All i really want you to think is that a good person loved you as much as he could but all the factors involved burned him out. His anger was justified even if it wasn’t expressed gracefully. He cant have both taught you what love was supposed to be and been someone insensitive. Idk you have a right to think of me as you wish or not think of me at all. Given the time we knew each other despite it being a while already it’ll probably be forever before I’m completely over you. But i do want to stop thinking of you as much as i have recently. I had for a while then I had a dream about you and a constant fluctuation of reminders. Maybe you were/are thinking of me and thats what triggered the fellings maybe… that said you probably would have said something you never were afraid to say whats on your mind.