Does love really exist? I’ve wondered this many times. When I’ve dated guys and felt nice around them. When I’m with my grandma. When I think of dad. But then this feeling of emptiness comes along, and i hated it. Is that what love’s supposed to be? Emptiness? Why? Does mom feel like that when she thinks of me -if she ever does-? I hope not. I want her to only see the small good things I’ve done. they’re not so many but they’re something. Right? giving up my freedom wasn’t nothing, Right? God! If I had a dying wish it would be to hear her say those three words that no one’s ever said to me and actually meant it: I love you. But how can i ask her to lie. I hate liars but for once in my life, I wouldn’t argue it it was coming from her.
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Your mother loves you hun! And you don’t need a stupid boy to make you feel beautiful. Wait I feel like a hypocrite cause I feel most of the things you’ve said. But you’re beautiful and I’m sure a lot of people love you, I love you and care for your well being. And honestly I those three words are loosing meaning cause when people say it nowadays they don’t mean it so I see where you’re coming from.
Sometimes what we feel is clouded by other things. I mean, i’m pretty sure i love at least one people in this world (my grandma), but at times i do feel empty and i stop caring about everything, including her. I’m pretty sure that doesn’t mean i don’t love her, but only that there’s other things that are overriding whatever good feelings i have towards her.
As for your mom, i’m guessing she loves you. Most parents love their children, even if they don’t seem to do so at times. Remember, they’re humans too.
It exists. And I do believe your mom loves you.