I listened. I broke it off with my cousin. I couldn’t sleep at night, had many panic attacks. This is very problematic. I think I made a mistake. She probably hates me now, well at least I will get a psychiatrist sometime soon. I just texted her and she hasn’t answered, anxiety is coming back at school. Never had a public panic attack. I’m worried.Â
I think i fucked up bad, breaking up with jasmine. She’s my cousin but these intense feelings are real, as real as pain, and until they go away, then I still feel love for her. Mot just plain lust. Yeah, she fucking hates me, I can’t blame her though, I would hate me, too.Â
She told me she feels love for me back, I told her I want to make love to her and whatnot, I wanted to make her happy. And that would allow me to feel happiness. -_- … T-TÂ