BlueDiamond

Today, I plan on going back into Tucker’s. I don’t want to work anymore. Tired of tormenting myself to accepted into a world that will never accept me. I want off the human plantation, but I guess I’m now going to have to fight for that now, when I feel like they never wanted me on the plantation either. I’m going to be off this web-site for a week. Means I’m going to be eating shitty hospital food and sleeping on a bed that’ll hurt my hip, but it’s better than dealing with the outside world.

I got another bill from Tuckers. How can I get medical help when I can’t afford it? I know, just stop being depress and magically suck everything up like a sponge. I just got a job, and guess what it’ll all going to go to paying bills. Most of dept is college, hell the debt on one my credit cards is college, and I’m still working shit jobs, scraping the barrel to pay bills. Over 90% percent of my debt is college. Rarely do I spend money for myself. Bad enough that I have a dad who is always bitching to me about money, but […]

Started my first day of work, just sat at a computer all day doing on-line tutorials. I going to have some expensive bills to pay. Gotta paid to get my eyes check, and hopefully pass a physical. My blood pressure can not be any higher than 140/90, which it isn’t usually. It happened only one time, but I was eating unhealthy, smoking cigarettes, been angry the past few days, and was very nervous getting my blood pressure checked. I could feel my heart rate go up, then it was 140/92, but after that my other checks have been healthy. One time, I even got low […]