NOT SUICIDE but still important
The spiders are coming back.
For the last two or three years, there have been these really awful spiders in my house, and they terrify me. Last year, I got crawled on multiple times, and I’ve gotten in trouble for the way I react/try to get rid of them.
I used fixatif once, and I’ve broken furniture, and I got so paranoid. They don’t like the light, so I started sleeping with my lights on. That was way too bright for me, though, so I started waiting for the sun to come up before I even layed down. I spent the entire summer being completely nocturnal, and even then I wasn’t getting enough sleep, and I started seeing things. It wasn’t healthy.
Now they’ve popped up twice, and it’s 3:55 in the morning on a school night, and I’m doing it again. I’m a college student! I can’t do this again! Especially not DURING the school year! I’m already anxious enough as it is, and my depression has come back a bit stronger these last few months.
I’m going to try cleaning my room tomorrow, but I need help. Please.
What do I do???