eternaldarkness

1- Who else has no family (or shitty family) and no SO? Anyone else who will be alone? Or am I alone in being alone? -_-

2- Thanksgiving as taught to us in America was that the Pilgrims and Native Americans sat down and had a lovely meal together. HA! One of the biggest lie there is. Meanwhile, the Brits/Pilgrims slaughtered the Natives- men, women, children. The ones that survived were given Smallpox Blankets so the disease would spread and kill them off- which it did. 90% of Native Americans died from Smallpox, Measles and Flu (or they would […]

Imagine if we suddenly were granted what we lacked?

mindlessgamer- a better job and one that pays better
Heartlessviking- same as mindlessgamer- a job that actually values you and pays you what they should

there’s lots of ppl on here who want a SO- can’t remember everyone’s usernames- but I think MOST ppl on here are either lacking a loving SO or Money. Or both. Like me.

So…money and love eh?

We all just want to be loved and have enough money/freedom. But apparently we’re asking for too much from this world… -_-

Yeah, life is beautiful- for OTHER ppl.

For ppl who have money- who can afford to live in a nice house in a nice neighborhood. OFC life is beautiful. But for the rest of us- cramped into a tiny box called an “apt” surrounded on all sides by shit neighbors- it’s fucking hell. 60% of all Americans live paycheck to paycheck. Life is NOT “beautiful” for us. That’s 60% of the fucking US population. And that’s not taking account the ppl who may not be paycheck to paycheck but are still in rough shape. Like one rung up the […]

Interesting…this just happened to show up in my feed lol

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What would you do (aside from going back in time and aborting yourself)?

Death in a second.

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I am ANGRY at what a shitty hand I was dealt in life. And FRUSTRATED that I can’t make my life work. DEPRESSED and SUICIDAL bc my life isn’t working and is shit.

If we all could make our lives work, or in some of your cases just work better, we wouldn’t be here on this suicide site.

After decades of misery upon misery- just what CHANCE is there that “things will get better”? That suddenly, that I will finally have a good partner, have a few real good friends, have money/not have to worry about money anymore, and my health improves?

I don’t belong in this world. The ppl who thrive in THIS shitty world are:
1- ppl who are born well off- If you weren’t born into money (and by that I mean at least to middle class parents, which btw, HALF the population are NOT) you are pretty much screwed, unless you manage to beat the odds […]

Before the wall cracked, I made decisions like Dr. Spock- I was very analytical and logical- and made decisions that made the most sense. Like for ex, which University to go to given my lack of money, lack of parental support of any kind, and What I should major in, and etc. It turned out that all decisions made were all “bad” decisions in the end- not “bad” as in I stupidly did stupid things, but “zigged” instead of “zagged”- albeit most were unbeknownst to me that it would turn out bad.

It made sense to major in Finance/Business, even though my heart was […]

*I know this post is really long, but I hope some of you read it all the way through*

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This was back in 2009. Yes, a long ass time ago, but I still have not gotten over him. It’s very rare I even like someone enough to go out with them, let alone fall in love with. That was the problem- I didn’t even know at the time I had fallen in love with him.

My whole childhood was full of abuse, so I naturally shut myself off from my emotions and stuffed them into a box I called the “Pandora’s […]

The Assholes and Shitcunts that pretend they’re so sweet and nice on the outside, but are really manipulative and evil on the inside. So many douches masquerade as innocent little lambs, and they fool most ppl. When you try to show friends/family/coworkers who they really are, THEY look at you in disbelief and don’t believe you and attack YOU and defend them bc they’ve all been fooled, and continue to be fooled by those manipulative, lying shitcunts.

Like, really.

to watch some scary Halloween movies? well, i’ve just seen something on YouTube that will scare the bejesus out of you. and if it doesn’t…then you might be a serial killer lol

search YT for “dead meat moving compilation”
also, watch “Decapitated wasp grabs its head before flying away”

Real life/death is fucking horrifying and creepy AF
It’s Halloween 24-7 on Earth -_-

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It all started with a video that popped up “snake eating itself” which seemed interesting and innocent enough. And then it showed links to creepy shit, like dead meat moving. Yeeesh…

All throughout public education, we were taught that the colonists and the Natives had Thanksgiving Dinner- never mind that Indians don’t celebrate Thanksgiving and the fact that the story is just bullshit. The REAL TRUTH was that the British and colonists gave the Natives Smallpox-laden blankets so that they’d all catch Smallpox and die. Yeah, THAT story was never told to us.

I *just* now (30min ago) learned about this. And yes, this was documented and is fact- even the History Channel and the National Library of Medicine (.gov) admits this. Although, they deny this tactic worked. OFC it […]

An online “friend” of sorts had told me one of his friends from HS/College hung herself while they were in College. He knew her since HS or something like that, but anyway, one day while they were in College, she hung herself. No one knew for days until somehow someone broke her door open (this was off campus).

Anyhow, I feel kinda jealous. Like this girl actually DID it. I mean, I’ve been suicidal since fucking forever, and wished I did it when I wanted to at age 7-9. Yes, I was already depressed and suicidal then. But back then […]

I’m tired of suffering, I’m tired of this shit life.

Most of us on here DO NOT want to die- but rather we want a BETTER life, one that doesn’t seem to be available for many of us, despite several decades of suffering.

~39min but worth the watch!

This is some story!

BILLIONS of people have parents who love them. WHY do I have to get screwed with TWO of the most shittiest ppl on the planet? How does one even HAVE a fucking chance when you start off life with two assholes who are selfish af and don’t care about you?

And yet I’m told to “just forget the past” by EVERYONE. Like YOU get abused since birth and tell me how easy for you to “just get over it.”

It’s not like I wasn’t given a toy I wanted for my birthday. I got BEATEN almost every day, with GIANT black […]

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