Horrible day today :'(
Are there decisions you’ve made you wish could be undone? (or done differently)?
Do you have regrets that you still have not gotten over? like for decades?
There’s a few big ones for me that I just have not been able to get over.
What’s done cannot be undone, and what’s not done then cannot really be done now.
Too tired to get up and fight anymore.
There’s just too much depression and misery and sickness, and no love and no joy.
Some people have a great life. And others…we hang out here on SP, forever thinking about death… Sigh…
I swear, the day I actually want to live, is the day I get sick(er) and die.
http://blogs.discovermagazine.com/notrocketscience/2011/04/05/worlds-2nd-deadliest-poison-in-an-aquarium-store-near-you/#.Wup7I6QvzDc
I don’t really care to have a bday celebration, but I do want to eat cake, and try lots different kinds of cake at Cheesecake Factory, but I don’t really care to do the whole dressing up, bday song, inviting everyone, waiting 2 hours for a table there, and all that thing. After all, it’s another year older, so not really something great or something to celebrate.
But on the other hand, I’d prolly be sad if I stay home and do nothing that day…
I asked the Nurse THREE times I need to get tested for E-COLI, basically the ONLY reason I went in. She assured me all THREE times she will request for it to be done. The urinalysis came back. Guess what. She didn’t send in the request for the E-COLI test. Instead she requested BV and regular urine culture, which I did not ask for nor need or want. But no, I’m being charged for that shit.
I kept asking the front desk, they keep telling me the results are back and that it’s negative. I keep telling them that […]
*pftt
*scoff
*sad laugh*
sigh…
Does anyone else feel like they’ve been put on this Earth solely to be punished? I’m not even religious and I feel like that.
It’s just never-ending misery heaped onto depression heaped onto a mountain of suffering. And all I’ve got left is a pocketful of despair.
Does anything have any meaning anymore?
Feeling sucky right now…
I’m tired of being told “don’t worry, it’ll get better.” Yeah well I’m “middle-aged” so I’ve been on this Earth for several decades. Been suffering for most of my life.
So when will it get better? I don’t have hope that it ever will. Sigh.
Sometimes, we are our own worst doing. What do you do (or don’t do) that kinda screws your life up?
living or dead, who would you want to be and why?
*(aside from wanting to be literally dead)
Me- being this guy sounds pretty darn sweet:
https://www.independent.co.uk/news/uk/this-britain/the-happiest-man-in-the-world-433063.html
People are … [insert your thoughts on people]
…everyone who wanted to end their lives could? Like a peaceful pill could be granted to anyone who really wanted to end it all?
-there would be so many fewer unwanted pregnancies
-there would be SO much less pain-
–no more pain from the elderly suffering and slooowly dying in agony,
–no more pain from those forever tortured from childhood,
–no more pain from those who can never attain happiness
–no more pain from those who are just so sick and tired of life or struggling
-Life would be more joyous for the living- no more debbie downers and depressives like us to drag anyone down.
*aside from Living
*and school/work
Not talking about the normal up and downswings. Talking about the constant background depression that is always there for some.