I’m so done with everything. I’m too damn young for all of this to be happening. I wish it was easier. First, we were going to go to church as a family. My step brother never goes to church with us so he was being a dick about going. My mom started yelling at him and a little later she started crying. I went in there and started yelling at him and then my mom pushed me away. I ran to my room and started crying because now my step dad was yelling. He was calling my step brother a bunch of names and […]
FallenAngel83
FallenAngel83
Hi, I'm Hannah. I have 2 brothers and 1 sister, my parents are divorced and my mom is re-married. I unfortunetly live with my mom. My dad lives 13 hours away and I havent seen him since Christmas, and wont see him until Christmas. My stepdad yells constantly. My dad is an alchoholic and my oldest brother recently got kicked out. I'm the middle child of 4 and it kinda sucks. I used to cut a lot and I have pretty damn advice for anybody that still does. Hit me up.
I always feel guilt, towards others… When I cut. I’m scared to commit suiced. I always think of how bad it would hurt if I lost someone that is important to me. My boyfriend is going through some shit right now and we got on the phone and talked for a bit. He said he hated his life and everything and everyone in it. I’m either nothing or everything… I still havent figured it out yet. He threatens to kill himself quite often… I always tell him “Brett dont. Suicide is permanent there would be no going back to a life that you CAN change […]
You sit there
Staring
Acting like I’m not
A human
What did I do?
I didnt mean to hurt you
Nobody was supposed to
Be sad
A little twist
Just a touch
A red streak shows
So does my smile
Its all I can remember
From last Tuesday night
I’m sorry, I really am.
But I cant wait
To do it again.
Next time, end it
All.
I dont know what makes me feel like this, maybe its the drugs, maybe its the people… Or the situation. I’m done with life and I feel like I have no purpose. The only reason I am still alive today is because of my daddy and my boyfriend. Unfortunetly though I dont live with my dad. My parents got divorced when I was 2 and my mom took my brother and I to a different state to go and live with my grandparents. My dad is an alchoholic, it bothers me a lot, more then it should. I really want him to become sober, but […]
These past couple of months I have been having weird dreams… So weird that I litterally think I’m going insane. I keep dreaming about people who are important to me, dying. It got so bad last night that I started crying myself back to sleep. I told my boyfriend and he said I wasnt crazy, course he was probably only saying what I wanted to hear. I told my ex, David and he said “Have you thought about seeing a phsyciotrist?” I geuss I had it coming… They wont stop though, I’m afraid to go to sleep at night because of it.
Last night, I dreamed […]
I started cutting. I started cutting deep, I didnt want to stop, I had no intention of stopping. I started when I was in 4th grade, I stopped for a year and got right back into it. I was clean for about 8 months until last week. I started again. I dont know if its the people I’m with or what I’m going through, but I still dont want to stop, i cant. I’ve become addicted, cutting is like a drug to me. My mom and stepdad usually call me a whore, to my face. In January, I shoplifted with my friend Kassidie, we got […]