Jamie-S11

I assume you know Matthew’s post was a dig at me? Don’t comment on him and he’ll go away.

Everybody is aware that this Donnie, real name Matthew, is an idiot. I seem to have annoyed some people by standing up to him so I suggest we ignore every one of his posts and delete any comment he makes on any of ours? I’ve also reported him to whoever runs the site so hopefully he will piss off soon 🙂

I haven’t posted on here for a while because I thought I was beginning to feel a bit better, just today though I realised nothings better. Unemployed, hopeless, boring, waste of space, scared and pathetic are a few words to describe me. I think the only way I’m ever gonna improve is if I leave this god forsaken country (Scotland). The arrogance of people here and the same routine of going out getting drunk and making fools of yourself every weekend just isn’t what I thought life was about. Even going to the football at the weekends is getting repetitive and I never thought I’d […]

Well Its just turned Christmas day in Scotland. In the morning I have the joys of visiting family members I never see or hear from and put on a fake smile and act like I don’t wanna grab a knife and slash my wrists in front of them when they ask the bullshit question – “How are you?” My response will obviously be “Ye fine thanks” because that’s what they want to hear. They only wanna make small talk because that’s what everyone does at so called ‘celebrations’. I would turn down going but as I stated in an earlier post, I’ve disappointed my mum […]

Is it just me or is Christmas the most depressing time of the year??

Seriously… What’s the point in life? People feel depressed and low a lot more than they feel happy. Constant worrying about money, relationships, family, etc. Working non stop to stay alive but for what reason? Life only really starts when you retire but is it worth living in depression for 65 years… No. Whenever you look at the front of a newspaper is it ever happy news? Whenever you see someone in the street are they ever smiling? Does any marriage not end up in divorce and court cases regarding custody of kids who end up traumatised (excuse the spelling) by the whole experience? Does […]

Ive had depression for roughly 4 years now and I’m at the stage where death is a comforting thought but there’s no way I could abandon my mum. If it wasnt for her I would have killed myself a long time ago. Just when I start to feel happy it all comes crashing down again and Im sick of trying new ways to make myself feel better but as long as my mum is here I feel like I have to keep trying. Anyone else feel like this?

It’s my 19th birthday next Monday and most normal people at the age of 19, in Scotland, go out to work, go out drinking at night with friends and get in and out of relationships with loads of girls. Whereas me, I’ll be in the house playing call of duty trying to avoid reality until my 20th birthday watching my friends get girlfriends, get paid from their jobs, go on holidays and generally enjoy their lives, hanging out with me at my house purely out of pity. That has been the sequence for the 17th and 18th years of my life so why should my […]

Basically my dad walked out on me and my mum when I was 7 and left us with a load of debt. My mum had a drink problem and I often had to put her to bed and take care of her by myself from the age of 7. I would walk home from primary school wondering what state my mum would be in. When it got too much for me I went to stay with my favourite person in the world, my great aunt in the country, and one morning when I was staying with her I watched her die from a heart attack. […]

There is absolutely no point to my life. I’m extremely paranoid all the time and feel like whenever a friend hangs out with me at my house, it’s just out of pity. I stay in the house all day with the curtains closed pretending I don’t exist. The only time i’m comfortable is when i’m alone in my room in the dark. I’ve tried many different types of medication that haven’t worked and been to psychologists who do nothing really. The truth is that nobody cares. My mum does… but thats it. She’s the only thing stopping me killing myself. It’s gotten to the stage […]