Maybe it’s “wrong” of me to do it, but taking that knife to my arm just now, out of anger, felt SO good. I haven’t cut from anger like that in a long time. Oh how I’ve missed you.
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My final days are fast approaching. I finally am looking forward to something. I made the mistake of saying something to my mom and what do I get back? She tells me I’m a spoiled, selfish brat that wants to hurt everyone I possibly can just because I can’t get what I want. But it’s ok, because I don’t care anymore. I told her that too…. That I don’t care about anything or anyone and it’s not selfish, but I don’t expect her to understand. She says, just tell yourself you are happy and you will be. Riiiiiight. That’ll make nearly 18 years of hating […]
I just read a post by justanotherloser. If you are out there, please respond. I have some questions for you.
So I’m making my final plans, working on letters and I wonder… What if it’s just as bad after? I’ve pretty much stopped believing in God because why would we all be in so much pain amd suffering while He just stands by and watches? But what if there is some sort of afterlife or heaven or some other shit? Is it going to be any different than it is now? Is it going to suck any less? Or am I going to hate each day more and more and have to committ suicide from that world too??
I’m just curious what peoples thoughts are….
I’ve decided to write my final notes tomorrow… I haven’t picked a new date for my suicide though. By the end of the summer for sure. Hopefully I’ll get though all that tomorrow. My happy ending is near.
Well this fucking blows. I come up with the perfect plan to kill myself… Hanging at my parents businesss, which was supposed to be empty all day today. Then last night we find out a pipe burst and the whole place was flooded…. Inches of water everywhere. So my dad has been there all day, cleaning and getting things moved out so the restoration crew can come in tomorrow. Wonderful…. My private date with a rope and my suicide playlist cancelled. And please don’t say this is a sign I shouldn’t do it… I don’t believe in that.
I know it’s kind of cliché to commit suicide on a Monday but with it being the 4th and the anniversary of my rape it seems right. That holiday is about celebrating your independence right? Well I will finally be free. Free of this hateful world. I am so excited! I’ve decided on hanging as my method. I haven’t researched too much but I’ve got a little time. I have a perfect spot. My parents own a business and we will be closed that day. I’ll have the place to myself and nobody will find me till Tuesday. So even if things go wrong and […]
So I stumbled upon this website a few years ago when I was googling different topics relating to suicide. It definitely has changed a lot. But now I’m back… Reading bits and pieces and posting here and there.
A little about my story…Â I have been, as my therapist calls me, a functional depressive. I go to work. I have two jobs actually. One of them, not the best, but with a great company…. And I just found out I will be working in the department I’ve wanted to for the past 7 years, using my degree even! I went to college and got my degree […]
I’ll try and make this quick. And please don’t comment saying life isn’t that bad and that I shouldn’t end it because my mind is made up. You’ll just be wasting my time and yours.
I’ve suffered from depression for 16, almost 17, years. I have tried therapy and psychiatry and while it might work for a month or so, it all of a sudden flips on me and I am worse than when I started. I am a cutter, have been since I was 10. I’ve tried commtting suicide before and obviously been unsuccessful. I’ve been trying for 12 years. My depression finally has […]