I might get started on writing my suicide note soon. Any tips on what on what i should or should not put in the note would be appreciated.
I actually thought i was going to kill myself a few weeks to a month ago, but my friend somehow stopped me. School is but a few days away, and for me that means horrible grades(because im so stupid and cant understand a damn thing im taught in school), horrible grades will get my parents to yell at me which, in turn, will bring suicidal thoughts like no other. Also, ill be attending the same school as Her, the person whom i shall love with all my heart forever. And just the sight of her, just the sound of her voice can bring me […]
So lonely i cant stand it. I have no idea why i havent killed myself yet, i wish i did a long time ago. I guess i cant blame anyone for not wanting to be my friend. Nobody would want a stupid, weak, fool like myself for a friend. I deserve to die.
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I dont know what i should do. I want to kill myself, but my best friend has somewhat delayed it. For when shes telleing me not to do it, i am unable to concentrate and plan out how im going to kill myself. I want to kill myself very badly but i cant decide what to do. I could kill myself, end the pain, but i will leave my best and only friend in this horrible world, making her life worse that it already is. Or i could stay and prolong my suffering, but it could also lessen hers. Do i leave this world and […]
Im going to do it. Im killing myself. Very very soon. Dont bother trying to talk me out of it because it wont work. Right now i dont give a damn about the consequences. I just want to die. Everyday my pain gets worse and worse. Im putting an end to all of this pain. This could be goodbye to everyone, so i wish you good luck in all that you do. Perhaps i will see you all in the afterlife if there is one.
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I am so lonely. So hated. So stupid. I should just kill myself now. Nobody would notice, nobody would care.
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Why did i have to be born?!?! All i do is ruin peoples lives and they ruin mine in return. Why is the world like this? Why are people like this?!?! So cruel, so unforgiving, so horrible. This world is better without me. People will have less problems without me. I cant take it anymore. Im getting closer to killing myself than ever before. My life is hopeless. Why cant i just die already!?!
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If I died, nobody would care. They would just ignore it and carry on with their lives like my death hadnt even phased them. They would just keep living their happy, joyus lives and mabye they would be even happier because im gone. Nobody would think about me if i died. Much like nobody thinks about me now. EVERB0DY HATES ME. I would be doing them and myself a favor by ending my life.
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I hate this world
I hate school(who doesnt)
I hate when people touch me(especially hugs, it makes me sick. i get somewhat close to vomiting when it happens. idk , thats just the way i am. i know, its stupid. im stupid)
I hate living
I hate this stupid worthless post
I hate every stupid worthless thing that i do
i hate my stupid worthless life
i hate everyone. everyone in the whole world(with the exception of two people)
I hate MYSELF.
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When I see a knife, I think of stabbing it into my chest, piercing my heart. Or cutting my neck with it. When I see a tall building, I envision myself jumping from the top of it. When I see a bottle of pills, I want to swallow them all at once. I would either overdose, or choke on them. Whenever I come across a body of water, I visualize myself drowning in it, my body sinking to the bottom. Perhaps never to be seen again. When I see a gun, I imagine putting it to my head, slowly pulling the trigger. When I […]
I feel that just about every single thing you tell me is just a bullshit lie. Its hard for me to know when you’re actually telling the truth. You say one thing and I find out that it was just another lie. I know when you’re lying to me. For every lie you tell me, I get closer and closer to suicide. You have told me so many lies that im almost there. So go ahead, lie to me again.
I use to be afraid of the dark; not anymore. Now I want to be in the dark all the time, where nobody talks to me and nobody sees me. When I enter a room I search for the darkest corner possible, and stand in it. To get away from the crowd and to remian unseen. Nobody even notices im in the same room as them anyways. I just wish I could be as invisible as I feel. The darkness; its where I get peace, quiet, and best of all, its where I can be alone.
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I make stupid decisions. I say stupid things. I do stupid things. Im just so stupid.
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You never talk to me anymore. Yet, you still talk to everyone else. Everytime I see that you’re online, I send you a chat message asking you to please talk to me again. You reply to me with silence, or you just go offline. You dont know what you’re doing to me when you dont say anything back to me. I dont know what happened between us, we went from being the best of friends to complete strangers. I feel I am the only one trying to rebuild what use to be our friendship, but you stop me everytime I try. You never listen to me. […]
I cant take this anymore. she said she cant talk to me because she has a boyfriend and he would get mad. she didnt tell me who it was though. great, another boyfriend. well she obviously cares not about me, so theres no reason for me to live! so i grab the rope, i already know how to tie the hangmans noose so this will be easy. i tie the knot, go get the ladder and attatch it to the ceiling. i climb the ladder, place the rope around my neck. as im doing so, i think about what im leaving in this world. i am leaving all the […]
Make sure you have read My Story.. Before reading this.
Back when she still talked to me, but after we stopped being “brother & sister”, I went into a desperate attempt to get her to be my sister again. She told me no. So I asked her why and she said that it was too stressful that I hurt her too much. So the reason that she did everything else was becuz of what I did to her. I harassed her with questions, stressed her out, and worst of all, I hurt her. I never meant to do any of that to her. I deserve everything […]
Im dying. Dying from lonliness. Dying from the pain that everyone has brought to me. Dying from knowing that N0B0DY wants me. Dying because I know that I will probably have zero friends my whole life. Dying from everything ive been through. Dying on the inside. Wont anybody save me?
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Now its over. This is the end. Everything that you have done to me has led to this. My wrist now bears a vertical cut along the vein from which there is no coming back from. A bloodied knife lays on the floor. Blood gushes from my wound. My vision gets blurry. I write on the wall with my blood the word, WHY? The only note I leave is to whoever finds my body. I tell them to let Her know what I did and that I will always love her. Time is running out. The moment that I have longed for is near. I […]
Night, my favorite time of the day. I hate going outside during the day. Walking around seeing all of the happy couples walking together, holding hands, talking, and knowing that I will never be in that position. I will never be with someone. At night, I look up in the sky. View the stars, the moon and everything and think about why I am always the one who is left by myself. Why I am the one who nobody even thinks about for one second. Why I am the one who hates my life while everyone else is out enjoying theirs. Then I lay down, […]
I cant last much longer. theres nothing left. my heart isnt broken, it is completely destroyed. i feel nothing but pain, emotional pain. the physical pain, which mostly comes to me because i subject myself to it, i have come to enjoy. nobody cares about me. when will my life end? not soon enough. my life is like a nightmare which i never awake from. i look around. i see everybody laughing. happy, enjoying themselves. i envy their happiness. everyone is in a big group talking. i am the one on the outside. exiled. isolated. i have no friends. people i know, they consider me as their […]