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So True

by nextime1988 1/11/2016

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1/11/2016 4 comments

Shame

by nextime1988 1/11/2016

written by nextime1988

It started a few years ago when all my friends were graduating, getting their first jobs, or starting a Master Degrees. And where was i??

Well 4 years into something i should have finished in 3 i still had half of my subjects to finish, it ended up taking 3 more years ( 7 total) to do so.

I started to taking side toutoring classes for some subjects and which made me feel guilty because those services are not cheap and i was putting even more wight on my parent’s shoulders.

With all this i felt so ashamed i didn’t want to show my face around, i started […]

1/11/2016 3 comments

A Different Perspective From a Male

by nextime1988 1/1/2016

written by nextime1988

It seems many of us, men, here at SP struggle or have struggled with problems related to the opposite sex, messed up relationships, stalkig exes, or like me years of constant rejection, being friendzoned, women mistaking kindness for weakness and taking advantage of it and walking over us.

And you know what?

I’m 27 and i dont know why or how but about 3/4 years ago a sudden changed occurred …. i just stoped bothering with it at all, suddenly i dont care if women notice me or not, i walk by a gorgeous woman on the street with the same indiferrence that i walk by a […]

1/1/2016 6 comments

Tiny shred of hope

by nextime1988 1/1/2016

written by nextime1988

I’ve been reading recent posts and think it’s a very positive thing that you make new year antecipations and resolutions. it means deep down you still have at leats a tiny shred of hope.

Lately i find myself living day by day and dreading the future, which for some who used to think far ahead makes me unrecongnisable for myself.

Keep up the good hopes 😉

1/1/2016 3 comments

Happy Hollydays or something like that…….

by nextime1988 1/1/2016

written by nextime1988

First and foremost i want to genuinely wish everyone that 2016 may be more happy or at least more bearable that the previous ones.

This Christmas i decided to give myself a present, thats right, thats why i’ve been somewhat absent lately …..i’ve decided to aquire my method, it wasnt easy and it took me months of reasearch, but i’ve made it.

It’s pretty much like band aid or tylenol or spare tire, you never know when you’re gonna need it….

If there is one time of the year i dread is New Year, it reminds me how lonely i am, you see i’ve only made real friends […]

1/1/2016 0 comment

Don’t even know what it is.

by nextime1988 12/16/2015

written by nextime1988

Have you ever heard of feral children???

Feral children are those who have been adopted and raised by animals, which means even if they are brought back to societythey will always been impaired people why?

“Feral children lack the basic social skills that are normally learned in the process of enculturation. For example, they may be unable to learn to use a toilet, have trouble learning to walk upright after walking on fours all their life, and display a complete lack of interest in the human activity around them. They often seem mentally impaired and have almost insurmountable trouble learning a human language. The impaired ability to […]

12/16/2015 1 comment

Where is your safe haven?

by nextime1988 12/2/2015

written by nextime1988

We all have a safe haven a place where we can be away and safe from all the agressions world throws at us.

Mine is my living room couch even in good days if go to bed whthout spending half an hour there ill have a hard time trying to sleep its the, for me only way to calm down at the end of the day laying there in the dark watching tv or listening classical music.

Where’s yours???

12/2/2015 14 comments

Women

by nextime1988 11/29/2015

written by nextime1988

I’m a below average statured man, yet i htink my looks may be not that bad. at a certain point in my life i began that noticing sometimes in public setting women would notice me.

Like this morning i went for lunch with my parents at a fine restaurent when then this gorgeous girl walked in with (i think) her Grandparents and they sat in a table next to us and it happened she noticed me.

Maby its the reason i’m feeling so bad today knowing that i’m a socially awkward fuck, that i dont have the guts and even if i had no woman whats to […]

11/29/2015 5 comments

Sunday Blues

by nextime1988 11/29/2015

written by nextime1988

Usualy people dread mondays, something i’ve always found dificult to grasp as my least favourite day of the week has always been Sunday, specially since my depression and suicidal thoughts began, specially now during the winter. when the cold and cloudy days take their toll.

And here i am again in the living room thinking about killing myself, and as opposed to perhaps all of you wishing for Monday to kick in.

11/29/2015 6 comments

Have you ever heard of heightism??

by nextime1988 11/25/2015

written by nextime1988

11/25/2015 10 comments

One might be touch starved without even knowing it

by nextime1988 11/25/2015

written by nextime1988

I was one of those book worm nerds who started college a virgin up untill then and during all my teenage years i had never had any girlfriends, flings, hook ups……. nothing……

Fast forward to my very first semester in college, most of my class was at the library working on research group assignment.

I was standing bent over the table my group grabbed , when a female classmate gently stroke my back, now there was absolutely nothing sexual, intimate flirty about it she was just grabbing my attention to hand me a book i had asked for.

But the moment she touched me i mean it was […]

11/25/2015 37 comments

wonder if the rest of you might feel the same sometimes?

by nextime1988 11/25/2015

written by nextime1988

People might get the wrong impression from a 27 year old man saying this, but im sharing it because probably some of us here experience the same .

Well not in those days when it seems like all hope is lost.
But every now and then feels like all i needed was to be held to be cuddled to have someone hugging me , strocking my hair and tell me it’s gonna be ok . to show me a different perspective on things.

Does the same happens to you?

11/25/2015 28 comments

It gets worst at night

by nextime1988 11/23/2015

written by nextime1988

Barely could sleep last night, if anythig other than water enters my stomach it will come out right after, i’ve been hiding from my family as i don’t want them to see my teary eyes, it’s 10:30 pm it seems to get worst at night, the only place i feel safe is the living room i can’t even go to bed.

11/23/2015 2 comments

I love them but it’s becoming harder and harder

by nextime1988 11/22/2015

written by nextime1988

After lurking for a few months this is my first post here, let me just apologise beforehand for any spelling and grammar mistakes, english is not my native language.

i wish my parents were already dead so i could just go ahead and off myself, they have been so good to me throughout life i feel i can’t put them through the pain and grief of losing their only son.

But i dont know how much longer i can take this.

11/22/2015 8 comments