Cassie

I’m nervous and worried. Everyone says its alright, what’s the worst that can happen? But they don’t know. They don’t understand how hard it is to care. How there can be this wonderful person you care about and it still doesn’t take much to shut switch off. How its so easy to cry while I’m smiling. How much of an effort it all is. Everything I am, everyhing I’ve done to myself.. and they ask what’s the worst that can happen.. I could drag him down with me.

I’ve made a point of leaving people alone. I’m probably the strangest person at my school. They don’t […]

You push someone away and they don’t often push back.. Even someone who does will eventually stop trying. This is something I have learned about people, and do whenever someone gets close. How do I stop pushing? I broke down and cried when my friend asked what was wrong.. I had never done that before. I talked and he offered to listen.. then push, leave me alone. Time to lock up, shut up, because it will all come back to bite anyways.. Well it did, but I guess that was my fault too.. How do you expect someone to react when you say.. “I […]

I want to scream. I want to cry. Feel something, do something.. but I’m too tired. For those who tke meds.. is it worth it? My family doestnt know.. school will be starting soon.. what do I do?