I feel like I have it all right now… I’m free of my emotionally abusive ex, I have an incredible new man in my life, I’m going to my dream school, have incredible friends… but god I’m tired. I’m failing two of my classes, I think about my ex… not in a “I still love him way” because I don’t. I don’t love him anymore. It’s just, like, what did I do wrong? Am I going to fuck up my current relationship because of my plethora of mental illnesses? I still have no idea why he loves me… and I’m tired of second guessing myself […]
I don’t know how to move forward right now. I feel so broken… my boyfriend is going through a really hard time right now and I can’t help him. I’m also going through a hard time right now… not that it matters. I’m always going through a hard time. Ha. He’s always so exhausted from work and is not even the slightest bit affectionate towards me… I don’t think he loves me anymore, and that’s the hardest thing for me to try and accept. I’ve almost spent two years with him, and I feel like he is slipping through my fingers. I don’t want to […]
I need someone to talk to
Hey loves. Just want to pop in again and ask how everyone’s feeling. I don’t know about you guys, but Summer is a bit easier for me to live through. I prefer being in colder weather, but winter always makes me so depressed… It may be hot but at least I don’t feel like dying today! Everything is so bright and fluid and lively- it makes me feel as though I can be that way too. Yesterday was a tough day for me. I had a massive drop in energy, which lead to a huge depressive episode… #perksofbeingbipolar. Since I am exhausted today from yesterday, […]
Hello my loves. Today marks a day in which I cannot remember the last time I cut myself on purpose. I cannot remember the last time I shoved my hand down my throat in disgust. The last time I tried to take my own life. The last time I told myself that this, here, is the last time. The last breath, sob, tear. It does get better. Somehow. Painfully. Endlessly. You must trust yourself endlessly. You are the only person in the world who can change your mind. In your sea of pain, remember all you need is to tread water. You can do this. […]
I only have seven min before my parents take my interenet and phone is anyone here? I just cant do this anymore and im so frustrated and confused and im having another pani attack please help
Hey loves 🙂 Idk if anyone I know is here anymore but I guess now i’m one of the oldies lol. Please feel free to message me and catch up.
Hello all! If you’re out there and you know me, please drop a comment below and let me know how you’re doing- and if I don’t know you, just know I’m an old timer on this website and I took a break from it for a while. Comment below even if I don’t know you! And to all of you whom I knew on kik- I deleated it because of personal reasons, and I’m sorry if you couldnt get a hold of me.
I feel like crashing into a tree. Thoughts?
Hey guys… long time no see. It’s been months since I’ve been on here…. months spent thinking. Thinking that I was getting better. Thinking that the old Sam was gone. The one whose depression conquered her on a daily basis. The one who ran to her knife for comfort. The one who never knew what a nigt in peace was like.
Wrong.
So damn mother fucking wrong.
Hahahaha life is a cruel joke my loves. It wants you to live but gives you all the cards to die. I hope you are all doing better than me. I hope to see some familiar faces on here soon… […]
It’s all my fault. My horrible relatioship with my dad, the reason my mom cries, the reason our house hold is so fucked up. It’s just all fucked up and I can’t fucking fix it because it’s all my goddamn fucking fault. You know what hurts the most? Is knowing that this is so fucking true. All I can do is sit here like a dumb fuck and listen to Nickleback blaring in my ears trying to drown every shitty bit of my self in the angry rythum og the music and a sea of self hatred. I want to drown in my own hatred- […]
Hey loves. So I haven’t been on here in what seems like forever- and I see so many new faces! (Hello new faces:)
I don’t know if I’m coming back or if I’m just popping in- probably just popping in. Before I talk about me, I wanna say that I hope everyone is doing, at the very least, ok. Of course, I hope for adventurous magnificence for all of you, but I know that’s not always reality. Life, emotions, people, combinations of all three- they can constantly stand in your way to happiness. But I’m here to tell you that you deserve to push negative […]
Hello my lovelies 🙂 I haven’t been on here for quite some time now… I thought if I stayed away long enough, my negativity would cease to exist. That it wouldn’t affect you guys- I like bringing positivity here! I like letting you all know that you are loved and cherished are are beautiful and strong and inspiring (BECAUSE YOU ARE, YOU FUCKING FABULOUS PEOPLE YOU) but I… you know what? Never mind. That’s all I want to say. I missed you all, and I hope I can help in any way I can 🙂 Love and hugs to all *opens arms for giant group […]
So I went to some fancy schmancy doctors in San Francisco to get the results back from my brain scans. He said that the over activity in my brain causing my anxiety was “horrifying” and could only imagine how bad it would’ve been without my current meds. The comparisons between my brain and those of a normal brain are startling in their differences. He’s putting me on yet another medication with supplements- I’m excited but sceptical. I’ve already tried so many meds…. But what have I got to lose? I got so desperate to cut that I took apart my eyeliner pencil sharpener 🙁 It […]
Hello loves 🙂 So I haven’t been feeling exactly chipper lately, and I think I’ve found something helpful.
You can go somewhere you think no one will hear you, or you can just stay in your house. Grab your pillow if you want to try and muffle the sound- but I recommend just letting it out.
Now, take a deep breath (haha see what I did there) and just scream your freaking head off.
Now I don’t mean a half assed yell- I mean a fucking battlecry against everything you’ve ever faced as a challenge or a foe.
Just a suggestion
Listen.
It is taking me again… I don’t want to go. I’m sobbing and I’m tired… I’m so tired loves. Save me from myself. From the depression… Save yourselves from the sorrow that is me
Ok, so I read a bunch of posts to day and it seems like many of you are angry and are enjoying calling people assholes (haha I love it). People seem to think that it’s not ok to get angry… that it’s not ok to express your frustration at a situation or at some dickhead who is ruining your day for no apparent reason other than his dickheadedness. So, lemme say this: if you have a justafiable reason to be angry, LET IT OUT. Don’t try and suffocate your true feelings with rainbows and carebears; grab your bat, swing at some trees, scream some fantabulous […]
Just wanted to pop in, say hello, and hope everyone had a wonderful day 🙂
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