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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

No one gets it

by progmessiah8 5/27/2013

written by progmessiah8

Everyone “understands,” but no one really “gets it.” No one has the slightest clue of what it’s like to go through what I’m facing. To this day, I know nobody in my life who is LGBT. I’m all by myself with this. Anytime I’ve told someone, I’ve had to deal with questions like “Are you confused?” or “Are you sure this isn’t just a phase?” and I get so annoyed by them. How does everyone think those questions make me feel, as the receiver? My parents accept me, but I have to keep it a secret from everyone else now since I can’t trust that […]

5/27/2013 14 comments

A letter to a ‘friend’ of mine…

by Smiling_Liar 5/27/2013

written by Smiling_Liar

I’m gonna talk to you by your nickname, Salmon. Remember when i gave you that nickname, Salmon? Â You and your younger brother have the same name so i each gave you a nickname. You, Salmon, because of your salmon pink colored braces. Your brother, Termite Bro, because he’s short, he’s like the lil brother i wish i had, and when we first met, we didnt get along and he would call me cockroach… yea weird… though others call him Teki, you both know i like to make up my own nicknames.

Anyways i wanna write to both of you. You 2 may never read this but […]

5/27/2013 3 comments

Living or not

by jones0565 5/26/2013

written by jones0565

Before I go I wanted to say this. So you’ll understand why I chose to go. I lived in a middle class style of life. Learning responsibilities young and trying to fit in whenever it was time to move again. I’m 22 and can easily remember about 25 places I’ve lived. Not counting the dozen others I can’t. So I’ve kinda already lived a travelers life. Knowing when to pick up and move. Knowing where to go the next day. I was born into it. Naturally I can’t be held down. Forced to please another living a domesticated lifestyle. The walls tell me it’s true. […]

5/26/2013 1 comment

Why did she say this?

by Whydopeoplehurtus 5/26/2013

written by Whydopeoplehurtus

There is a woman.
She has a WONDERFUL life, she is a born negative person, but she has a husband a daughter a dog and her mom is still alive. Well, not as healthy and as fresh as she was before but still alive.
The only thing she misses is her dad. Her dad died, and this tragedy caused an immense negativity towards life for her. She has never seen life as a beautiful thing since then. She just sees it as labyrinth of suffering.
She is so negative that, to her daughter (14 yrs old) trying to answer the question “which day is your […]

5/26/2013 2 comments

Secrets

by HurtsButHelps 5/26/2013

written by HurtsButHelps

I remember when I had none
No secrets.
There were no need for them.
I could trust anyone and everyone with anything.
I had no secrets.
I had no worries.

But one day something changed.
I became older, more mature
and suddenly everything was my fault.
Have you ever had a loved one pass?
Have you ever been bullied?
Has your mother ever gotten mad at you,
and said the words “Its just who you are”?
That’s all happened to me.
Now I’m worried.
Now I have secrets.

There’s no going back to the old me.
There’s no reversing what’s happened.
There’s nothing I can do,
besides […]

5/26/2013 1 comment

Summer

by sleeplessinSTL 5/25/2013

written by sleeplessinSTL

If there’s anything I truly hate, it’s drama. I hate the drama that girls cause, I hate the drama boys cause, and I especially hate the drama grown ups cause. The summer usually is a time that I can get away from most of that drama. I think almost everyone loves summer.

I FINALLY get to leave St. Louis. I’m staying with my cousins during summer, like I always do. This year though, I don’t think it’ll be the same. I usually would bike to my friends house and we’d go to the pool, or get ice cream, or go to the rec. center. But this […]

5/25/2013 1 comment

I always feared I was a loser and today I got confirmation

by Baxapa 5/25/2013

written by Baxapa

As a teenager I was the last one at a dance event to be chosen and I had to dance with the last girl also still unchosen who was a fat girl wearing knee braces. I couldn’t see myself dancing with her and left the event, seeing her crying alone as I was leaving. All my life I wanted to neutralize the memory of that day, the shame that burned on my face. And today, rejected by her and threatened with reporting me for stalking her, my greatest love evoked the same burning on my face again.

I wish I did not have a position in […]

5/25/2013 1 comment

Poem I wrote on this

by HenryDavid 5/24/2013

written by HenryDavid

The angel on your shoulder; opposite the devil.

Godâ€™s voice speaking to you, beside the voice of satan.

Your sadness and scars from the past; exposed and dried up

You watch and feel as they are ripped open, time and time again

It hurts, that I know.

It makes you sad to re-live it; of this I am sure.

You may be hurt inside, and outside; true.

But donâ€™t you know the truth? The cure?

You may be depressed, or re-live the pain again.

You may feel so sad that you canâ€™t move; or even roll.

But thereâ€™s one thing that you need to […]

5/24/2013 1 comment

why do i deserve my life

by punkin 5/23/2013

written by punkin

I don’t understand why I feel this way. It’s like no matter what I do I am still a pathetic worthless piece of trash who deserves to be beaten and raped. I am 22 now and my life should be better I haven’t talked to my step dad in 7 years. I thought I was better now. Last spring I was raped by two strangers and ever since I have been lashing out at people. I want them to hurt me because if I star it then the only person I have to blame is meâ€¦ The down side is that now I just want […]

5/23/2013 2 comments

Lesbian, Medicated, Frustrated

by Equalisntevil 5/23/2013

written by Equalisntevil

My name is Sarah and I am 19 years old. Since the day I formed human attraction I knew I was in a world of trouble. When I was nine years old I developed my first crush on a girl, knowing it was not socially acceptable I ignored it. I had always been a more masculine kid, preferred riding dirt bikes and rolling in the mud over pretty pink dresses. Although my family had always supported me as an individual they still leaned towards the norm. I was still forced into those pretty pink dresses as a kid. In my early teens I hit a […]

5/23/2013 1 comment

Just part of my ever growing story

by lifeasweknowit 5/22/2013

written by lifeasweknowit

I never thought that the people i watched on the tv in health class could one day be me. I never thought i would feel so helpless that i would want to die. But i do…and have attempted sciucide three times, each time i have either been stopped by someone, or it just didnt work. I think that this depression, or feelings of depression came about the start of my 9th grade year. Everyone has a group of friends, i was too unsocial to join one and now im too late, everyone always says; oh wow your so funny or you crack me up, but […]

5/22/2013 1 comment

Well, I guess this is me.

by HurtsButHelps 5/22/2013

written by HurtsButHelps

I’m 13 years old. I would tell you my name, but being new here, I don’t know if I can trust you all to that extent yet. Normally, I post poems that reflect how I feel at the moment, or how I felt throughout the day, but right now I’d like to get a few things off my chest. I’ve told a few of my friends some of this before, but no one knows all of it at its worst. I feel as though I can trust all of you with at least this, even if I don’t know you. So here it goes.

My story:

5/22/2013 3 comments

Climb any mountain to get you back

by missingafriend 5/22/2013

written by missingafriend

What appears to be true: My friend Patrick,Â his marriage is being investigated by the Office of Immigration as a false marriage solely for the purpose for his wife to gain citizenship. A dispute between Patrick and his wife on how to proceed drew different paths. Patrick was served divorce papers this month and he became distraught with the thought of losing his house and making alimony payments.

As my personal belief, for the most part Patrick you were not a person that could shareÂ your personal challenges especiallyÂ what you were feeling. In this kind of marriage situation I expectÂ you feltÂ you could not. You should have trusted and […]

5/22/2013 1 comment

I’m just tired

by ossa 5/22/2013

written by ossa

I guess it started when I was born. I’m currently writing incredibly bluntly, please bear with it. I’m immensely bitter, especially right now. The state I’m in right now is disjointed and confusing and I just don’t understand anything of my thoughts, I thought maybe writing my story out would help.

Right, so I guess it started when I was born. So really, just this family. I’ve been abused as a kid. I don’t realize this until now. I didn’t understand this as abuse, and I was a child who only knew their parents to be right. I didn’t really understand the concept of having your […]

5/22/2013 1 comment

by Jess 5/21/2013

written by Jess

I hate every second I spend in this hell hole that’s supposed to be my home. I hate looking at my dad, every time I do I feel this surge of resentment. Im tired of being that bastard’s punching bag, the fuck up to blame when things go wrong, the one who’s talents are ignored. I’ve never cut before but tonight I really want to. Everything that’s important to me is ignored, the only thing that gets me noticed is when I get pissed off and snappy, then they yell at me and I’m left crying, trying hard to explain. No one understands, they can’t […]

5/21/2013 8 comments

New Job; Cutting; Inadequacies.

by solace 5/21/2013

written by solace

I finally got a job, which is wonderful. It’s helped me get out of the house, fill up my time, keep me busy and not feel so lonely. But the thing is… they are all so judgemental. It brings me down sometimes, I mean if they are talking about others like that, what are they saying about me?

First things first, I am a cutter, however I have always cut my legs, and the ones on my arms are done in such a way that they are either hidden or they just look like an accident. Anyway, there was a girl working for us for about […]

5/21/2013 1 comment

Feelings

by HurtsButHelps 5/20/2013

written by HurtsButHelps

I snapped.
I confided in you my deepest secret.
I trusted you.
But, I was wrong to do so.
You twisted my words.
Made it sound worse than it really was.
Then, you told everyone.
Don’t you know?
I still have feelings.

I thought you were my friend.
I thought you were the only one who cared about me.
But, I was wrong.
You didn’t care.
Others did, but I turned my back, and now they don’t.
It was all you.
You spread the rumors.
You talked behind my back.
Don’t you know?
I still have feelings.

I showed you my scars.
I showed you what I […]

5/20/2013 3 comments

First Time

by ineedtoleavethis 5/20/2013

written by ineedtoleavethis

This is my first time on here, so i think i should telll you my past. when i was younger i was a really happy kid. my whole life was laughter. untill my parents divorced, they both remarried i was an only child but now my dad has 3 girls and my one sister is deaf and another has a hole in her heart. To make it worse my aunt, my bestfriend just passed away unexpectedly and my house just bunrt down… i used to self harm really badly but i learned to stop. i now have eating problems, in the last 3 days i […]

5/20/2013 1 comment

My first post in a while

by RuinsOfTheVoid 5/20/2013

written by RuinsOfTheVoid

My first post in a while.

I don’t know what it is that keeps pulling me back here, but no matter how my life is going eventually I always end up back here. Maybe it is the safety of the internet, perhaps it is that I know you all understand what it means to be depressed. I feel like I have made some of my greatest friends on here because they actually get me. I don’t have to pretend with you guys. Its nice, I guess I just miss that.

I work in an office now, software development, its fine, im good at it, but I have […]

5/20/2013 1 comment

my story part 1

by ChellyDiane 5/20/2013

written by ChellyDiane

Growing up I was the happiest little kid possible. But I dont know if I was truly happy.
I was constantly lied to from the time I was born. Always told that I was Mexican and Black because thats what my mom said to me. So I told others that, I tried to fit in but then I found out the real truth in about 3rd grade. When my mom told me that I was really black and white Â I went and told my friends. Worst mistake of my life. I was in 3rd grade and labled as the biggest lier possible

Nothing made it better. […]

5/20/2013 4 comments

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