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by FakeSmilesRight
written by FakeSmilesRight

So I’m  14, I know too young to be feeling this way. But I have no confidence I cant stand looking in the mirror I hate myself. I’ve been breaking down a lot, nothing but crying this isn’t the first time but its never been this bad. I literally have been having suicidal thoughts everyday, its gotten to the point to where I almost started crying in school today. I barely started cutting again. I had stopped in like November-ish of last year I think. But its been awhile and I started up again like in April I think. I’ve written so many suicide letters its ridiculous. […]

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Can’t take it anymore and can’t escape it.

by Akuin
written by Akuin

I just need to get it out. I’m 30 in July. I’ve never once had a job. I’m mentally disabled but can’t get on disability. Everyone treats me like I’m trash not worth helping. I’ve been bullied all through school, treated like I’m scum by the government, and my own family looks at me with contempt.

All I do anymore is sit and cry. When I try to talk to anyone it’s always “What do you have to be depressed about.” I can’t afford to get help, the government keeps denying me help because my parents aren’t complete assholes, and every place I apply to looks […]

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i hate this .

by kaleighh98
written by kaleighh98

my mom is always yelling at me , acting like im stupid ,and that i dont ever know what im talking about . and when i try to talk to her or make a conversation all she does is ignore me . she talks about me to her friends , and my family , and not in good ways . i havent cut or done anything to harm myself . but i dont want it to happen , so i wanna get this out . i hate my life . i live with my mom and step dad , he has money , and thats […]

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Can someone help me and tell me what to do…?

by Bloody
written by Bloody

Hi guys! How have you been? I have some good and then again some bad news… I have girlfriend : ) She is like all I ever wanted, and I couldn’t ask anything more when I have her by my side ♥ We have been together almost two months now, but we have secretly been in love with each other over half a year.. so we are happy that we can finaly be together now!

But there is one problem I haven’t talked with her about yet.. And it’s her ex. Her exgirlfriend, who died last year. I know that year is very very short time […]

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All You Have To Do Is Ask

by drowninginsorrow
written by drowninginsorrow

I finally have had enough with the emotional and physical abuse with everyone in my life. It is not like I have a best friend to tell all my problems to and receive advice from so I have decided to take a step forward and see a therapist.

I am partially excited about this decision because I can finally allow myself to open up without worrying about my secrets getting out but I am also afraid to tell about my feelings and emotions because what if he/she thinks I am a freak? A nothing.

This is my first step towards freedom from the dreadful memories that bind […]

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I’m Sorry

by emersonplky
written by emersonplky

Dear mother and father,

I’m sorry for being such a horrible daughter. I want to die. I want to waste the life that you gave me. I want to throw away all these wonderful memories that you’ve shared with me. The scent of your sheets in the Sunday morning, the wet kisses you still give me, the outdated radio you always turn on in the mornings while cooking breakfast, your corny childish jokes, the laughter and small talk–those everyday boring stuff that I love so much.

It’s not your fault, but mine.

I don’t deserve your kindness, love. There are 7 billion 107 million people (which I remind […]

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I’m going to lose what I never even had!

by heybaby
written by heybaby

There’s a guy that I love that, because of distance, I can’t date.

I really love him and he swears he loves me but-he doesn’t “do long distance” which is pretty much what we’re already doing. It’s exactly the same but I try not to let that hurt me.

I’m so afraid to lose him though…thinking of him, how I love talking to him and making him happy helps me survive the day. But-he’s not MINE. He’s not my boyfriend-he could leave and I wouldn’t be able to stop him. Thinking of us being together makes me smile and that helps push away the suicidal thoughts.

We were […]

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starving for confession

by nightstalker
written by nightstalker

I think its amazing just how naive people can be… I am starving myself to the point were I wont eat for days and when I do eat ill discreetly throw it back up… my friends and family think im just on a diet that is actually working for me little do they realise I am killing myself in the slowest way possible so nobody has to find a bloody mangled mess that would be my body if I was to take the conventional way(cutting). I know its no ones problem but my own but it just feels good to let this out because although […]

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Point of Life?

by whatzthepoint
written by whatzthepoint

Everything I do I end up quitting or giving up on. I have nothing to live for. I mean what is the point. I see a lot of people happy and I see great potential in them to have an amazing life. As much as I wish I could be like them I’m just not and I never will be anything. Other than my family a few close friends I don’t even think people wold care if I died. And I really want to die, but I’m not going to kill myself for two reasons. One, I don’t know how/too scared to do it/don’t want […]

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Entry one, of records for proof.

by Silverteardrops
written by Silverteardrops

Dad constantly hugs me, kisses me, messes my hair *affectionately*, rubs my face with his hands, the same hands he used to hurt my mum. Makes me feel SICK.

He constantly calls me, last thing at night, first thing in the morning.

Whenever my fon beeps “is it mom?” no dad its my friends lauren. Whenever im texting somone “are you texting mum” any word from mum? G’on text mum for me. Makes me text stuff to her I don’t want to say

My position is that I am lying. Constantly lying through my teeth. I don’t love him, don’t want him back, I HATE HIM DISPISE HIM, […]

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Trust

by Engeltje
written by Engeltje

Trust.
Just 5 letters.
A simple word.
But it’s not quite simple to trust.
I can’t trust anyone, even not myself.
I will never trust people for 100%.
Actually, I always had effort with trusting people, but after the times people used and harmed my trust so many times, I know I’ll never trust people for 100%. I never trusted people very quickly, but after everything that happened, it’s a miracle when I trust someone a little bit.
Trust is a word I don’t really like to hear.
It’s a word that’s much more difficult than you would think.
Does trust actually exists??

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I’m not worth it

by EverythingIsALie
written by EverythingIsALie

I don’t know how to say this but here it goes:

“Useless, Ugly, Hated, Misunderstood, Piece of crap” are words to describe myself. I’ve never been help to anyone, all I’ve ever been was a bother. A bother to my parents, my friends, my relatives, my family and all. No wonder I get screamed at alot of times. I’m useless. No matter how hard I try, things always turn out wrong and dissapointing. I’ve never known a happy ending, other than those in the fairytales. But fairytales are not real, never will be. Some people will just say “Life’s what you make it”. But that doesn’t […]

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I got tired of the BS

by Anonymous5
written by Anonymous5

January 5,2011 The day my daddy passed away, The day my 2 year boyfriend broke up with me,  The day my mom and dad got married through church , The day I tried killing my self …
My dad died from cancer my boyfriend left me for my bestfriend….My bestfriend told all my secrets. That night it was a school night thursday to be exact. I punched a whole in my wall my nuckles turned purple I wanted to hurt myself I thought “I dont desrve to live im just a waste of space nobody cares for me!” I punched the mirror now my nuckles […]

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Help me…

by x-----
written by x-----

Help me… i need someone.. i cant take this anymore…even here in the internet im alone.. how fucking pathetic is that… help me… be my friend…whoever you are, help me.. this is my last attempt…last.

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Hello everyone

by Sinine
written by Sinine

It’s been a long time since I was last on here. Months. And now I’ve come back because I am in a need to vent a bit.

You see, in the time I’ve been gone, I’ve come to terms with my own sexuality and accepted it. I am pansexual. And I also notified my mum about it. She was… less than happy, shall we say. In fact, we’ve been having long and arduous conversations (read: arguments) over this issue. Because my mum wont accept it. Thinks it’s wrong. And it just breaks my heart to know that my only parent doesn’t accept that part […]

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Hear My Voice

by TheWanderingSoul
written by TheWanderingSoul

I’ll never show my tears, nor cry for you to hear.
I can talk all that I want, but you wont lend me an ear.
I just want for you to listen, to hear what I have to say.
I wont ask for your advice, I just want for you to stay.
But you will never listen, because you always get your way.
So why am I still trying to get you to say my name?
It’s clear that you don’t love me, so my words are said in vain.
Though each word that I whisper is advantage you can gain.

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Can I Even Complicate Your Breathing?

by x3 I Ship Us x3
written by x3 I Ship Us x3

Sometimes, when I wake up, my heart beat seems slow and soothing, and I know that day is going to suck. Nothing will go right and I will reach for my blade, again. I hate it. I hate the people who make me feel worthless because they are right. I deserve to be bullied. All the vulgar thoughts that run through my head at any given time.. I’ve thought of killing my mom. Messed up, I know.

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Isn’t it Ironic?

by Stereotype
written by Stereotype

I am 29 years old and two and half years ago I got a surgical implant called VNS.  The depression I had struggled with for 12 years, just left.  Two weeks ago I found out that the man (my uncle) who molested me as a child from age 13 and under is going to the same community college I have been going to and is graduating on June 1st, the same day I was going to graduate.  I will not be attending that graduation ceremony.  He has been asked to sing at the commencement ceremony as well.  These past two weeks I have struggled so […]

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Done.

by hopefullbuthopeless
written by hopefullbuthopeless

Skylar Grey – Word

>I feel like I’m done , Rejected without saying anything , Unaccepted , afraid if i show this side of my it’ll all be over,I built up too much of a wall  ; I can’t fucking do this anymore , keeping everything about myself to myself , emotions,actions,words , thoughts everything  ; I try to make others happy yet most never seem satisfied  ; Just someone … ;

“When all I want is for you to see
The side that I don’t show to anyone
In fear that they may turn and run
Alone and incomplete
No more tears to cry
No more blood to bleed”

http://youtu.be/PGyaWKp4Szc

Better half of […]

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