The effects of suicide on family and friends.
Been crying for hours still I cried myself to sleep; Now my head hurts ;Something always hurts for me…:tired of this
keep telling myself to just smile and laugh but i can’t do it for myself ; only if i’m with others maybe ,I don’t know what to thing , it all feels fake …but maybe…
>I feel like I’m done , Rejected without saying anything , Unaccepted , afraid if i show this side of my it’ll all be over,I built up too much of a wall  ; I can’t fucking do this anymore , keeping everything about myself to myself , emotions,actions,words , thoughts everything  ; I try to make others happy yet most never seem satisfied  ; Just someone … ;
“When all I want is for you to see
The side that I don’t show to anyone
In fear that they may turn and run
Alone and incomplete
No more tears to cry
No more blood to bleed”
http://youtu.be/PGyaWKp4Szc
Today has been better than yesterday was for her. No yelling, no fighting, no hurtful words were propelled at her.
Last night was rough on her. She had to meet her regulars, some nice, some not so much. There was always those men who were very aggressive and since they were paying they felt entitled to anything they wanted. The girl would stop arguing after the first hit, she would stop resisting and let herself float into subspace waiting till it was over. The girl would awaken with noticeably black bruises up and down her arms, her neck, and down her legs.
She is afraid to go home, she […]
I’m not someone who anybody would suspect to be suicidal. I’m 17. I have the top grades in my class. I’m pretty (or so people tell me). I have a great group of friends. I’m popular. I’m funny. I’m well dressed. But at the end of the day, I hate myself. I hate myself more than anyone else could possibly hate me. But I’m still here. Read this and I’ll tell you why.
As I’m typing this tears are streaming down my face. My mom just finished another round of yelling at me to kill myself and how I’m a failure who will never amount to […]
She woke up today feeling happy till she heard the screeching of her mothers voice. She had overslept. The kids were not ready for school and she did not have breakfast ready. She was so tired from the night before from having to meet two men.
She slowly got out of bed afraid of what her mother would do when she saw her. She raced quickly getting the small children up and on the bus. As they left she slipped the money onto the piano for her mother, knowing she was expecting it. She found it not quite fair that she had to sneak out of the house […]
I’ve been feeling this way for almost 11 years. I’m surprised I’ve even made it this far. I’ve lost most of my friends because they’re tired of hearing me being sad and depressed all of the time, especially when their lives are going so well. Not like they were any help to me when they were around but it’s just that now, I feel completely alone. I have no one to talk to and I’ve been keeping my feelings in for so long. No one even bothers to help me anymore because they feel its no use. After they give me advice, a couple of […]
I recently tried to commit suicide however it was a failed attempt that doctors cannot even explain, I’ve gone to therapy am on three medications and I thought there was light at the end of the tunnel but I was wrong. All the feelings I felt before are back. After my attempt my family and friends withdrew from me. I don’t know what to do!?
You can find a solid definition of the word death in the dictionary. But when the word death is spoken aloud; when a group has a conversation about it, every person has their own definition. Every person has or will experience death. People, places, memories, pain all come to mind at the sound of the word. There are an infinite amount of ways to die. Every person dies. Most people go before they are ready. Old people die most naturally. Teenagers who live surrounded by bullies end their lives prematurely; scared to witness what real adulthood could turn into. Unsuspecting mothers and fathers, on their way to get […]
Her mother has six children, five girls and one boy. She is second oldest in line. The oldest sister does nothing to help the family, never steps up to her place to aide the mother in raising up the children. There is no father around, though the boy does not step up and take the mans place like he should, protecting the women and girls. She has been taking care of children since she was 6, feeding them, bathing them, getting up every 2 hours for a bottle. She had grown tired but does not complain for she knows her mother must appreciate it somehow… […]
in my lifetime ive realized friends are some of the most dangerous people youll ever meet, the trust, time and effort you give them gives them alot of power over your emotions and state of mind be careful who youre friends with. If u ever find yourself without a friend or good friends then do the things you love that make you happy
It kind of irks me to know that despite trying so hard im still alive i had written my suicide note posted a goodbye online and tried to kill myself softly….which obviously didnt happen n im alive….typing another post….but feeling the same crap….i wish id be here for no longer
I feel so lonely….i have no one to talk to……suicide helplines doesnt work for me….God what should i do….what should i do?
I’m done… Just wished I had a gun right now, so I could kill myself. I hate my life. I FUCKING HATE MY LIFE!!!
I’m NOT happy, I never was and I’ll never be. My parents don’t understand me, they only make me feel more worthless and lonely, like I’m a piece of trash, a mistake. Constantly have arguments with them because they don’t understand me. Therapy doesn’t work, medications doesn’t work. I’m just desperate… Don’t know what to do anymore. The only way out I see is killing myself, and actually it’s a pretty good option for me I guess. What’s life worth when […]
I just broke up with my love…I feel like I have no reason to live for anymore.After all this time she just told me I’m ”not her style”.I hate it when I see her on the street and she just looks away.Friends of mine tell me that I’ll find another,but there is no other…
She was the best.I won’t ever be able to find someone like her.All I thought of all day is suicide.And I’m not even scared to the slightest bit.I just made this post to tell someone that would care.This is my last day on earth.In aproximately 24 hours I will be at the […]
Family does not understand what manic depressive bi-polar is like.
I feel dead inside. My soul has been devoured by a pit of darkness pulling me in.
Every day… I see no hope… no future. Just darkness, pain, lonely… can’t fight the pain much longer.
I am a surviver of lortabs & Xanax overdose. 5 day coma… brain damage. have a shotgun now.
I’m ready….
I’ve honestly never felt comfortable talking to my father about anything meaningful. For most of my life, Id even go as far to say that I was scared of him. Still am, a little. Dad, he’s always been the angry guy. He’s ex-navy, and is thoroughly no-nonsense. I, am the exact opposite. I dropped out of Air Cadets this year as I couldn’t stand it, I like to speak my mind, I am creative and very sensitive. Whenever I have something eating away at me, I go tell my mom I need to talk, and she’ll sit down, listen and let me tell the full […]
I’m just a kid in grade six I know u am young to be thinking about suicidal but after you hear about my story you won’t blame me for being on this site
Ok all my life I have been abused. I moved away from my mother when I was about 5 and never came back till I was 8. I was in a foster for half of those 3 years. My farther and mother were divorced and when I moved far away from my mother, the same year my father hung himself. I moved back at 8 years old cause my mother had done […]
I don’t understand what it is that makes me so fucking stupid. I always seem to fuck something up…no matter what it is. Like I have two friends. Both like me, but I only like one. We started talking… He said that he wanted to be with me, but he was scared of hurting our friend, which is completely understandable. Well…now he’s not even sure he wants to be with me anymore…and I’ve already fallen pretty fucking hard for him. Our friend of course knows nothing about us ever talking…and he’s getting upset seeing me cry because of some mysterious guy that he doesn’t know. […]
I feel like I’ve had depression for most of my life, but I’ve never been diagnosed. It started when I was younger because I could tell my parents didn’t want me. I was their “surprise,” and I’ve heard more than once that I was a mistake. I’m also the youngest out of three. So yeah. My sister is my mom’s pride and joy, and as much as it makes me mad that my mom doesn’t act like she gives two shits about me, I love my sister to death. Like I said before, I’ve felt like I’ve had depression for a really long time. I […]
I made some mistakes, no not some i made a lot of mistakes. And i think i deserved everything that i’ve been trough and i’m going through. I wasn’t a good person, i used to do bad things, things that are irreversible. 2 years ago i finally noticed that i changed my name, who i am, went a new place, place that nobody knew nothing about me. i made some mistakes there too. i always make mistakes. and i am so ashamed like i can’t even explain it. if i could go back, to anytime i would go that time fix my mistakes. my past will […]
I have always wanted a best friend, and the only thing close to that was this girl named Breanna*, but she got mad a lot at me for not thinking the was she does and she had another group she would hang around with and i dont think they liked me because in a way i was a higher class then them but i never saw people as classes i just saw them for who they were. Anyway back to my point, it is not like i dont have any friends, but these friends are more like, how would you put it.. acquaintance. Everyone seems to […]
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