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when my stuff i ordered online gets here, I’m done. my mom is making fun of the way i am feeling, calling my dad and my aunt telling them I can’t clean my apartment, I’m sorry I’m depressed and my mom is making fun of me for it
i found this site when i was in grade 7. i’m going into grade 10 now. in the span of three years so much has changed. when I was younger i didn’t understand why some users posted the things they did, but i gradually began to deeply sympathize with their emotions of anguish and sorrow.
i’ve been visiting here more frequently as of late, and it feels like more and more people are joining. is that a good thing? maybe it’s just me
this place is special. i often wonder about everyone that’s come and gone. what was their story? where did they go? the fact […]
HUH. so here im letting out my depression in online world man im so messed up. Let me tell u about myself im cooper 17 years old got a sister we are 5 years apart ( shes 22 now) . She got enrolled in college at country side so my family had to move from city to a godforsaken rural area by family i mean my mother ,me and my sister ya i know i dont have a dad he died in some acciedent when i was 1 . well the messed up part is im not sure how he died how does he look […]
I feel like I am always searching for a place to fit in. Just to blend in with all the other people that fit in. But all I manage to do is watch them; Envy them; Pretend that I am like them.
I feels like I am just watching life from behind a glass. I can see what’s going on but I can’t join..I can’t touch them, I am never going to be one of them. There is always Something separating me from them. I don’t exactly know how to describe it. It is invisible and yet when I reach out I can touch it, […]
I am ugly. I am rude. I am vulgar. I am fake. I am useless. I am lazy.
My life is in a mess. I feel like I’m just going through the motions, without any purpose in my life. Why does anyone even want to live, when the end result is death? What’s the point in life?
If I left, people may be upset for a while, but they will forget soon enough.
I’ve had thoughts of suicide since primary school. Yet, I’m a coward. I’m afraid of pain. I’m afraid of cutting myself. I’m afraid that sleeping pills won’t kill me but make me suffer, physically, even […]
There’s always so much talk about painless ways to go… Does anyone here fantasise about more violent deaths? I’ve always wanted to go out with a bang. I want to stare death in the face and welcome it with a smile. I want the last thing I feel to be adrenaline streaming through my veins.
Is it okay to stay alive for your friends so they do not feel bad, and pretend nothing is going on but inside so much pain that you want to die?
Ever been so afraid to feel happy?
somebody kill me please
I need help understanding what is wrong with me because I only recently have been feeling more an more worse each day. If someone is out there to just hear me out and help me solve the issue, I would be so grateful. I can’t really afford therapy let alone tell my parents. Also I’m 18 if you were wondering.
ANIMALS ARE PUT DOWN AND GIVEN PEACEFUL DEATHS WHEN THEY ARE IN PAIN AND HUMANS ARE FORCED TO SUFFER AND ARENT EVEN ALLOWED TO WILLINGLY AND PEACEFULLY END THEIR OWN LIFE IT MAKES ME FURIOUS JUST ANOTHER REASON I HATE THIS FUCKING WORLD AND HUMANITY. ….ANYWAYS I found online a pill called the peaceful pill and it is supposed to be the best way to go and i am so happy i found it it would give me great peace of mind knowing i could be able to use this method….does anybody know about this pill ,how i can get it (from what i have […]
I tried to kill myself last month. I had wanted to kill myself for several years now, but it wasn’t until last month that I found the intense suicidal drive to plan an almost certainly lethal attempt. It took around 15 days to go from the decision to getting to a place where I could actually do it. But when I got there, with my handgun and my suicide notes, I just couldn’t do it. I tried so hard to pull the trigger, but I wasn’t psychologically prepared to kill myself. I’d still rather be dead than alive, but I just don’t have the psychological […]
I’m feeling very alone and very scared of how alone I’m feeling right now. I’m switching between meds and I guess the other havent kicked in yet because I’m a wreck. A large source of my depression is a feeling of responsibility for those around me and feelign like no matter how much I do I can’t do enough, do exactly the right thing, be good enough ect. I just broke up with my boyfriend a week ago because I told him I just couldn’t handl the responsibility or pressures of a relationship right now. He was very understanding at the time but is now […]
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hello there fellow SP readers im in need of some advice or guidance im so lost right now and for months the only solution to my problems is suicide.
My problems: Legal issues- im looking at some serious time for a crime im innocent in
Because of my legal issues im out of a really good job and i cant afford my bills and have missed many payments now
Im gonna be paying for my lawyer for the next 10 years for something i didnt do
everyone in my town hates me because of the way the media portrayed me and i cant leave […]
Since the end of my childhood I thought obsessively about my death. It became self termination, soon after. I tried to kill myself three times, one OD, going to a cliff to jump (I didn’t, and suffered no injury), and drowning. I wasn’t under long enough to pass out. I’ve held a knife in my hands thinking about burying it in my body multiple times. I think about suicide constantly, but over the years only attempted really once, I suppose. I feel as though I don’t have the right to call myself suicidal. If I’m not that, what am I? If I don’t feel this […]
I’ve lost yet another person who meant a lot to me. One of the few people who truly encouraged, inspired and believed in me. His funeral is tomorrow, and I don’t know if I can deal with it. He was a close family member, and our bound was something I took pride in. He became paralyzed at 19 through a swimming accident. He’s been quadriplegic ever since I can remember. I never saw him through his disability/handicap. I saw him for the person he was. From a really young age I started taking care of him when he needed help. He came to be someone […]
I have to hang in there longer. I just can’t put my dog down or give her away. She deserves to get older. She is 9 and will be really old in a couple of years. Somehow I will hang in there. I don’t like buying stuff, because it just means more stuff that the Public Administrator inherits, but I bought some house plants, put them in pots, and they make me feel better. I get very depressed when a plant dies, though, and I don’t have a green thumb.
So, if you want to hang in there a little while longer, buy yourself a toy […]
In the end I know two things that are completely and utterly true; that I do not matter, and that I am not enough. All my life I have felt completely and utterly alone, and this is partly my doing. I pushed away my friends and I isolated myself because I didn’t want them to get hurt when I inevitably killed myself; and I am finding that I am once again feeling this way. I cannot take the pain anymore, and my life will never get any better if it hasn’t even marginally improved over the last eight years. I wanted […]
