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If my suffering could be manifested physically, I’m sure everyone would be okay with me leaving

by timetogonow 8/26/2014

written by timetogonow

First time I tried to kill myself, I was 16. I overdosed and was hospitalised. I was raped and bullied. I left hospital and ignored calls from the police.

For the next five years, I felt myself losing a sense of who I was. A straight-A, goody two shoes, quit college (UK meaning of the word). I started over, but skipped school a lot. I ended up getting two As and a B at A Level. I got into a good university to study law, but I think they just wanted my money from international fees. I got a 2:1 with honours, but by the scrape […]

8/26/2014 2 comments

highschool hell

by 3lht 8/26/2014

written by 3lht

Today was the first day of my senior year, and I’m already having problems. Freshman and sophomore year were so rough for me, all cause of a stupid boy who ruined everything for me. As a result of our rocky breakup and all the drama that came with it, I started cutting. Then I started taking pills at night at first just anything for me to pass out, but that just progressed to taking as much as I can for a more lasting affect.. I was put on a 51/50 and stayed in a mental facility for 3 days. A few months after that I […]

8/26/2014 3 comments

anniversary coming….

by PeelASquid 8/25/2014

written by PeelASquid

Coming up on that date, August 30th, that night last year when I should have (and maybe actually did) die.

I still go back there often not to remember that night but for other reasons unrelated.

So what has happened in a year? I believe I am here for a reason. I found out some people care, some don’t. Overall, I could still be happy leaving this world,, although I have found someone to love, and someone I know loves me, which makes things different in a […]

8/25/2014 2 comments

I love you

by Scarlett Dawn 8/25/2014

written by Scarlett Dawn

I love you
But I cannot be with you
I love you
But I cannot hold you
I love you
But I am so far away
I love you
But I am not strong enough to stay
I love you
But it’s been so long since I’ve seen you
I love you
But you seen to be attempting to elude my mind
I love you
But my memories are fading
I love you
But the day has turned to night
I love you
But the sunlight’s hidden behind the moons shadow
I love you
But I can no longer linger amongst the living
I love […]

8/25/2014 2 comments

What’s the use

by Worthless_afterthought 8/25/2014

written by Worthless_afterthought

Death has been on my mind for quite some time now. a few years ago I never would have utter the words wanting to die, just let me be able to kill myself. now the words just come so easy and i just feel like I am getting so close to the edge. I think it is a possibility that I will have the strength to do it. Everyday is something new that just keeps adding to the pile of shit that is already on top of me. I feel so worthless like nothing I do matters. Nobody has time for me when I need […]

8/25/2014 3 comments

My CrossRoad

by -innerdemon- 8/25/2014

written by -innerdemon-

I am 18 years old, I am a recovering intervenes drug addict , I was shooting up morphine and oxy cotton when I was 16 resulting in shooting up heroine at 17 , just months ago I came to Nova Scotia to become sober , in all honesty I travelled from one province to another to make some money selling my ass for some cash, it turned bad and I ended up showing on my Aunts doorstep , strung out begging not to send me back to newfoundland. where the depth of my addiction began , Eventually things began to change around here , I would […]

8/25/2014 6 comments

I could break them

by mr.amazing 8/25/2014

written by mr.amazing

So g-ma was batshit crazy mommy is batshit crazy now turns out the star child is batshit crazy too but I’m too smart to try and die like mommy and too many people know my name for me to disappear like mommy wanted me to. I got left twice before daddy stepped in and at least I have a room to be left in. Lucky for me another she came along and we ended up going to the same schools. I used to cut a lot and it felt so good but she hates it so I got on my knees and promised her I […]

8/25/2014 1 comment

I’m a Machine

by Good Adjective 8/25/2014

written by Good Adjective

I’m a Monster, I’m a Machine.

Do I absorb the souls of the animals whose flesh I feast upon daily?

Do I suffer for what I made them suffer?

Do they drag me down for the horror they endured so bravely?

They were all victims, now I am another.

I tell them I’m but a factory and they are my fossil fuel.

Their response tells me they’re not amused.

When I chew their flesh, I know I’m being cruel.

8/25/2014 5 comments

I hate life, it’s such a rollercoaster

by boredroaster 8/25/2014

written by boredroaster

Hello everybody. I really hate alot of things about myself. I recently discovered that I’m transsexual. I’m an 18 year old attending college to get a mechanical engineering degree. I feel like if I transition I’m going to destroy everything I worked for because I heard that workplaces just hate hiring transgender people. I also feel like if I transition I’m going to end up still looking manly due to being fat, acne ridden and hairy. I am also half black and from what I researched and understand black male to female transgender people don’t transition well. And to make things worse I’m not able […]

8/25/2014 2 comments

by passionfruit3 8/25/2014

written by passionfruit3

so i burned myself the other day feel like doing it again cause im not satisfied with the amount of damage.school is also tommorow dont know why im trying again at something im bound to fail at.I want to do good but you cant live in the world if you dont want to live in the world.
I do have good reasons for wanting to leave.My whole family is alive and i dont want to watch them die in the next ten years.I want things to like pause forever and the only way i can do that is by dying.this world is crazy nobody is […]

8/25/2014 1 comment

I refuse

by MirrorMirrorOnMyWall 8/25/2014

written by MirrorMirrorOnMyWall

I refuse to let whoever the fuck is running things up there, the satisfactions of watching me, suffer, wither and die an early death by suicide. I refuse to give up, even though I have all the odds against me, even though I can’t love myself, cause there’s always regression to the mean; Things can’t always be good, but they can’t always be bad either, it has to mean out. I refuse to let my future loved ones down, by swallowing the pills in my hand. I refuse to give up on myself; i refuse to die unhappy, alone and young. I’ll fight […]

8/25/2014 4 comments

nothing left to accomplish

by tphg 8/25/2014

written by tphg

I’m a 28 year old Canadian male and drawing a blank on what to do with the rest of my life. I have a high school diploma, full-time job with 8 years of experience(sorting mail and making photocopies), perfect sized apartment in an upscale neighborhood and got a bargain on rent price, no women/children/pets/infirmed family to worry about except for my 14 year old brother who I tutor 3 times a week. My friends all live within 20 minutes and I see them 3-4 times a month.

I can’t think of anything else that I want, so why bother going on? I could get a girlfriend, […]

8/25/2014 3 comments

I Despise Myself

by TwistedSpace 8/25/2014

written by TwistedSpace

I feel like I’m literally the worst person in the world. I look at myself each day in the mirror and resist the urge to punch my reflection into a bunch of tiny pieces. Nobody really cares about me. I guess I don’t really care about them, either. But that’s not true, because if I didn’t give a damn about anyone, I’d be dead right now. I’d be able to do this, and never have to worry about anything ever again.

I’m mean to others. I told my ex-Boyfriend that I hoped his mother, who is suffering from cancer, would die an agonizing death from it. […]

8/25/2014 12 comments

2 of the worst things

by bookshelf 8/25/2014

written by bookshelf

Hi, I’m new here so I’m not entirely sure how all this posting works but I thought I should start off explaining how I’m feeling and how I’ve been feeling for a while now.

From the outside my life looks pretty damn great but actually living the way I do is unbearable.

This time 2 years ago I was self harming and contemplating suicide. I then went on to try and commit suicide last May, which obviously didn’t go according to plan but it did wind me up on 24 hr watch until august at which point my doctor and parents gave me permission to go to […]

8/25/2014 2 comments

coward

by worthless012 8/25/2014

written by worthless012

people always say that if you say you want to kill yourself you never truly will, i keep playing the words over and over in my head like a dare issued by a bully. i wouldn’t say its hope that stops me every time, its just fear. i’m a coward and i will always be. i know without a shadow of doubt that my life has no purpose. i used to belief that my family meant everything to me but ever since my mother become ill i have felt loneliness swallow me whole.

8/25/2014 2 comments

I hurt myself so you can’t

by pasdespoir 8/25/2014

written by pasdespoir

8/25/2014 3 comments

Thoughts on Love

by MuteKaterwaul 8/25/2014

written by MuteKaterwaul

A few weeks ago I came across an article in the New York Times about a man and his love for his cat. It was surprisingly interesting despite the subject matter and reflected on bits of human nature that would be applicable to more than just ones relationship with their cat/pet.

From the article: “I’ve speculated that people have a certain reservoir of affection that they need to express, and in the absence of any more appropriate object – a child or a lover, a parent or a friend – they will lavish the same devotion on a pug or a manx or a cockatiel, even […]

8/25/2014 2 comments

Is there a 24 hour suicide chat?

by einstein 8/25/2014

written by einstein

I”m looking for a 24 hour suicide chat, but not a phone, only online.

8/25/2014 3 comments

Tough week.

by Rey 8/25/2014

written by Rey

It’s like being at sea and seeing a hurricane approaching. Same feeling in the pit of your stomach, the awe at the power of the beast called nature.

It sucks when every week becomes another storm to weather. I can’t remember the last time where I wasn’t terrified.

I just want want some relief. How have I sinned to deserve this shit being thrown at me?

8/25/2014 3 comments

Those we love

by Scarlett Dawn 8/25/2014

written by Scarlett Dawn

We bear the pain of living for years on end
To keep those we love happy
We stay alive and continue breathing within our misery
So our loved ones won’t suffer in our divine demise

Yet there will come a time
When this illness becomes too strong
So strong that the love we have for others
Is lost as the darkness consumes us

That is when we tell our loved ones
Just how much we love them one more time
Yet they can never understand suicide
They all assume we did it out of selfishness

What they don’t realise
Is that we survived life this long […]

8/25/2014 8 comments

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