I refuse to let whoever the fuck is running things up there, the satisfactions of watching me, suffer, wither and die an early death by suicide. I refuse to give up, even though I have all the odds against me, even though I can’t love myself, cause there’s always regression to the mean; Things can’t always be good, but they can’t always be bad either, it has to mean out. I refuse to let my future loved ones down, by swallowing the pills in my hand. I refuse to give up on myself; i refuse to die unhappy, alone and young. I’ll fight to the very last end. Maybe it won’t turn out as a life worth living in the end, but at least I’ll have all my answers then.
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Yes… Way to go!
Yeah you got the right attitude. Life can have its up and downs but its worth it to kee fighting to hang in there. You never know when your day will come when a whole bunch of awesome things happen to you and then you will be glad you lived long enough to obtain them.
Yes there are some bad things going on in the world. But you could be part of the change to make iit better for you and those around you. its woth it.
Good luck to you
Damn fine refusal..good for you MMotWall…stubbornness is a great quality to have sometimes because it pushes us to try harder..Determination is a prettier word for it,I suppose:) but in any case,I have said before-even if its anger or lust for vengeance that strengthens you and makes you press on and keep trying to live,,then by all means,embrace it.This way you give yourself a chance to stick around long enough to find a path to better things..your post is inspirational,and gives everyone a great example of another way to cope,and hold on ….Also-wanted to say that I feel absolutely certain that it is not God fucking with you when bad things happen…it is a product of this seriously fucked up human race that relentlessly creates horror,hatred,pollution,discord,persecution,greed,perversion,mayhem,,etc…..I assure you the bad things are due to bad humans…Anyway-youre awesome,hanging on by sheer determination right now..later on,you’ll hang on for better reasons..good reasons
Thansk… I think 😉 And you’re right; It’s the humans who fuck up this world 😀